Long huge rant about how disgusted I am with my life

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Ugh! I just want to crawl into a hole and die. These past few days have not been the greatest by any means. I found out that my school schedule will be so heavy next year that I won't be able to work. This brings up a hole giant crisis. My financial aid doesn't pay out enough extra for living expenses; i.e. I can't really life off of the "living

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[rydellhigh]

I'm totally not going to suggest you listen to my opinion, unless you genuinely want to, but. Please don't put Brent's attitude over your education. Please. I would only consider--if you absolutely have to, or think you should--taking some time off just to make it easier on you, regarding your financial situation; because, at the very least, it's college and you can (usually) always go back and resume. To be honest, I probably sound like a terrible downer when I talk about this kind of stuff, but here is why: my mother got married young, and had me, and figured she'd be married for life and taken care of; she never went to college or worked. My father left her for another woman. So having grown up accustomed to seeing my mother have nothing to fall back on--meaning, no education or money of her own--I have decided that my ass is going to be taken care of BEFORE anything else. Because for however much you trust your husband/wife, things can happen; that doesn't mean that they will. But suppose something does? I would rather know I have a career of my own and a college degree to support me, instead of regretting giving up my education for my husband because he was upset and stressed out at the time.
Seriously, again, I know I sound like a big fat pessimist, but. It's just something that worries me and I feel strongly about. It's only my opinion. And you're a good friend to me, so I worry. I know a lot of women don't end up like my mother, but having seen her put herself in the situation she's in is a reality check.

[xpiercedxpixiex]

Jude, Nicole, Tiffy,
Don't worry. I'm not dropping out. I was just so frustrated that night. Brent doesn't want me to drop out. We just needed to sit down and have a real big talk about the money situation. We're going to make a budget and see exactly how much money I'm going to need to take out in the form of a student loan. I know I can't quit and I'd regret it forever. I just get so stressed out sometimes. We can make it work and support each other through all the ickyness in life. Thank you guys for being so supportive and sweet. I promise, I'm staying in school.