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I am not sure how i am feeling right now. Lover and i had our final argument, and there is no more of us. Not forever, not for one more second. And thats ok. I am sad, havent eaten really, dont sleep much. Tis ok. I cut my hair. REALLY SHORT...i have always wanted it that way..for too long i have listened to other people. All i need to do is clear my head up and press on..on to do what i moved back down here to do. On to my trek to New York. i have past distractions, and now i see clearly. Sort of clearly anyway. Clearly with a little bit of smog outside from all of the 115 degree heat and pollution, God, i fucking love Phoenix, but my real home, the stage, calls louder than here. What am i going to do now? I had it all figured out. Or at least i thought i did, you never have it all figured out. Your plan is already set, and you just have to sit back and enjoy the ride, the more you try to buck things, the more fucked up you feel. I dont know what lies in store for me. I dont know if i will be an actress or a bum...lol who the hell knows. All i know now is i am a little more free than before and it feels fan-fucking-tastic!