I don't write often
I can think back to about three or four precise moments when I feel that the world has drastically changed. These past two days have been one of those moments where I feel the world is no longer the same and some how everything has become so different.
It makes me think. Think about life and think about people. I'm confused about my reaction to recent events. More specifically, I'm confused about my role in other people's lives. How can I be the best friend and the best person I can be? I'm not sure I ever learned how to do this.
I only have about 2-3 months before I graduate. I don't think I am as knowledgeable as I expected to be when I graduate college, but I also don't think I am leaving Vassar empty handed. I wish my experience in college could have been more life changing and more of the college experience a majority of people seem to have (crazy parties, a life without responsibility, etc.), but knowing me, I'm not sure I was ever meant to have that experience.
And now soon off to another journey. I remember so clearly when I decided to go to Vassar and writing a livejournal post on it. I had decided about 2 days before the deadline and decided really based on a promise I had made to myself Junior year of High School to go to school out of state.
And how I've become so "East Coast" - so stressed about life and forceful in my opinions. It's scary.
Anyways, I wrote this because I wanted to document this feeling and date, though probably succeeded only on the latter part (date).
It makes me think. Think about life and think about people. I'm confused about my reaction to recent events. More specifically, I'm confused about my role in other people's lives. How can I be the best friend and the best person I can be? I'm not sure I ever learned how to do this.
I only have about 2-3 months before I graduate. I don't think I am as knowledgeable as I expected to be when I graduate college, but I also don't think I am leaving Vassar empty handed. I wish my experience in college could have been more life changing and more of the college experience a majority of people seem to have (crazy parties, a life without responsibility, etc.), but knowing me, I'm not sure I was ever meant to have that experience.
And now soon off to another journey. I remember so clearly when I decided to go to Vassar and writing a livejournal post on it. I had decided about 2 days before the deadline and decided really based on a promise I had made to myself Junior year of High School to go to school out of state.
And how I've become so "East Coast" - so stressed about life and forceful in my opinions. It's scary.
Anyways, I wrote this because I wanted to document this feeling and date, though probably succeeded only on the latter part (date).