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i feel numb. my life couldn't be more meaningless. i want to think there is something i could do to make this right, something i could do to change this all and make it better.. but i won't, i'll just lay here as life goes on around me, while people are making and breaking promises, destroying hearts.. i'll be safly tucked between my covers dreading 2:45 when we decided wether or not to get in to that little black honda and murder what ever hope it is i have left in my broken heart. maybe this time it is pure selfishness which i am well deserving of, that will make everything ok.. or maybe i'm just prone to disaster and this will solve nothing. maybe i am talking too much and letting too much out in this stupid little white box for everyone to read, i'm left vaunerable and alone and nothing's new.