Sean's bday

[xperfectdreamx]

Well today was Sean's bday so I called him up to wish him a happy birthday cause he did the same when it was my bday. I didnt feel like talking to him though but oh well. He asked me if I wanted to do something with him this weekend and of course I said yeah cause its not like I have anything better to do. I really like hanging out with him but I dunno what he thinks we are. I see us as just friends but I have no freaking idea what he thinks. Every time we hang out I'm afraid hes gonna kiss me or something..lol. I dont want him to kiss me though cause well i dont like him so it'd be really weird. And I can't ever talk to him cause hes my sister's friend's boyfriend's brother so if i tell him something it could get back to my sister and that bothers me..it shouldnt but it just does. I wish I wasnt shy and could just talk to people but nooooooo I can't. I hate it. Its just really really sad.

oh and i already posted this earlier but it didnt show up for some reason..i guess i closed the window before it sent or something. hmm oh well!