The things going on in my head...its amazing

[xpbxgirl]

I guess ive been thinking alot. And what is done is done already...and even if its true...it happened a couple monthes ago. What can i do about it now? And if its not true, than thats even better. I think i love him too much to let him go, he means alot to me. And i guess i can forgive him even if he did. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and hes done so much. I couldnt ever get someone as sweet as he is anyway. But it upsets me that he still doesnt understand me. You know how girls are. When we say dont call, that means please call im dying... He didnt have his phone on all day...u dont know how many times i tried calling. Left like 5957 messages so i probably seem desperate as shit. I just wanna apologize to him. And i cant even do that! I wish he would turn on his phone.

i wish alotta things tho

like...

*i wish i wasnt dumb enuff to get this mad

*i wish i could reverse time and take back all those words i said

*i wish i could just be in his arms again

*i wish he still loves me