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Since my lovely livejournal has become alive once again, I've decided it's time for a well overdue update.
Not much interesting has happened lately, everything is completely chaotic in my house... there are too many people here, too many kids, too many birthdays too many everything. And it's horrible, but I can't wait for them to leave. My house is just a bad place to be right now, and my aunts nuts, I swear.
I want to goto sleep so bad, because it's raining. Sleeping when it's raining is so beautiful. And does anyone else ever notice how the sound of the raindrops just puts you to sleep? It does to me.. I noticed it. I love it, and I decided that I look forward to sleeping all week, and sleeping in, and I can't wait to actually do it tomorrow, today I got woken up because Krystal insisted that she talk to me, except I was half asleep anyway, as if I want to talk to her. The first thing she said to me was "Are you still mad at me?" Like I get over anything that fast.
I want to know why life is so depressing? I was walking to a friends house today, and it was like... 2:15 and I was looking around at my surroundings, and everything was so beautiful. I want to be a photographer, I've decided, it's such an awesome thing. I look at things and just think... that would make the most awesome picture, because it's so beautiful. Just everything looked so clear, even at night, we were at the store and my moms cheery face glowed so nicely in the night. I dunno, it was just awesome. And life is kind of horrible right now, I know exactly why, sort of, I mean it's hard to decifer exactly why I'm upset. And today when I was watching garden state, I was thinking about how it's so hard for me to cry, and I wish that tears flowed so easily for me as they did for her in the movie, because it was just so beautiful. She was sitting on steps at the airport, and she was crying her eyes out because he had to go back home, and he tried so hard to make her feel better, and kissed her so many times, and then got up really fast and left, so it wouldn't hurt so bad. And then, he came back for her... and she was sobbing in a phone booth because she had no where else to sob. I wish that the things I feel like crying over were that easy to cry over. I know it's never that easy, but I want to be able to show my true emotions like that. The only way I cry is when I'm so worked up over something for a long time, and then something or someone pushes me over the edge, or someone hurts me, like physically. And I don't want it to be like that.
garden state was the best movie ever. Almost or maybe even better than eternal sunshine. it was so awesome how she caught his tears in a cup, and he was going on about how he'd put them in a scrapbook if he had one. and how he confessed his love for her, that was just pure awesome.
I don't really know what else to talk about, nothings interesting.
Not much interesting has happened lately, everything is completely chaotic in my house... there are too many people here, too many kids, too many birthdays too many everything. And it's horrible, but I can't wait for them to leave. My house is just a bad place to be right now, and my aunts nuts, I swear.
I want to goto sleep so bad, because it's raining. Sleeping when it's raining is so beautiful. And does anyone else ever notice how the sound of the raindrops just puts you to sleep? It does to me.. I noticed it. I love it, and I decided that I look forward to sleeping all week, and sleeping in, and I can't wait to actually do it tomorrow, today I got woken up because Krystal insisted that she talk to me, except I was half asleep anyway, as if I want to talk to her. The first thing she said to me was "Are you still mad at me?" Like I get over anything that fast.
I want to know why life is so depressing? I was walking to a friends house today, and it was like... 2:15 and I was looking around at my surroundings, and everything was so beautiful. I want to be a photographer, I've decided, it's such an awesome thing. I look at things and just think... that would make the most awesome picture, because it's so beautiful. Just everything looked so clear, even at night, we were at the store and my moms cheery face glowed so nicely in the night. I dunno, it was just awesome. And life is kind of horrible right now, I know exactly why, sort of, I mean it's hard to decifer exactly why I'm upset. And today when I was watching garden state, I was thinking about how it's so hard for me to cry, and I wish that tears flowed so easily for me as they did for her in the movie, because it was just so beautiful. She was sitting on steps at the airport, and she was crying her eyes out because he had to go back home, and he tried so hard to make her feel better, and kissed her so many times, and then got up really fast and left, so it wouldn't hurt so bad. And then, he came back for her... and she was sobbing in a phone booth because she had no where else to sob. I wish that the things I feel like crying over were that easy to cry over. I know it's never that easy, but I want to be able to show my true emotions like that. The only way I cry is when I'm so worked up over something for a long time, and then something or someone pushes me over the edge, or someone hurts me, like physically. And I don't want it to be like that.
garden state was the best movie ever. Almost or maybe even better than eternal sunshine. it was so awesome how she caught his tears in a cup, and he was going on about how he'd put them in a scrapbook if he had one. and how he confessed his love for her, that was just pure awesome.
I don't really know what else to talk about, nothings interesting.