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[xpainxlovex]

I need to start standing up for myself more.
I want all my friends back.
I want some sort of semblance of the life I had before back
and I want him, all wrapped up in one.
I feel like I just keep bending and bending, and smoothing down all my rough edges.
I'm a tree trunk with no branches
I'm so afraid to upset him, to push too hard
in case it all breaks.