i always over do it, dont i?

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These last few weeks of school really have me stressed out. At first everything was fine, a very laid back schedule and good grades, yanno, so i thought that i would be able to add a job to it. that has not been my brightest idea. i'm the hostest at koto's on college and while the job isn't hard at all, i guess the added weight is. maybe its because i never have a day off? well... i'm off on monday's because its closed but i've also got school on monday. its like i never have a day where i dont have anything that i have to do. welcome to college life, right? i dont know... i was able to go to school, practice for dance team and work 40 hrs a week during high school. i just dont get it. it feels like i'm trying so much harder and i'm getting less out of it. i'm not going out partying all the time like i used to or doing any of those brash activites that i once did. aren't i suppose to be able handle things a hell of a lot better and be more responsible now? i'm not.
i believe i am missing a few pieces to this puzzle because things are not making sense.
i need to get out more.

in other news, Arson is doing great. Josh got his own car now and we'll be moving into our own place as soon as the floors are re-done. I'm moving back to rosedale (a village about 20 miles from baton rouge). so maybe bonfires? i'd like that.