not the best day
i was supposed to work this morning at 7 or yesterday morning, whatever. so anyway, i was going to work 7-11 and then go to my interview to get hired on full time at the counseling center. that would have been good because i get really nervous before interviews and it wouldn't have been too bad because i would have been busy leading up to it. so i didn't end up working because some patients got discharged yesterday and they didn't need me. so i sat around until 9:30 and then started to get really nervous. overwhelming anxiety, so i laid down in bed to try to avoid cutting or burning, which is what i did before my interview when i got hired there, so i laid there and closed my eyes and eventually fell asleep. i woke up when my phone started ringing at about 11:30. i saw that it was work so i didn't answer. i waited 10 minutes and called my boss back with this elaborate story of me getting locked out of my house without my phone or keys. she was sympathetic on the phone so i guess she believed my story. she rescheduled my interview for 11 tomorrow morning. regardless, it couldn't have looked good to miss my interview for the job. now i have an excuse for if i don't get the job. i used to do shit like this in school, i'd bomb the first test or miss it or something, turn in the first paper late, whatever to make it impossible to get an a in the class. then i would work somewhat hard to get a b in the class. i bought a cherry lemonade slurpee later in the day, sounds good, but no, it sucked ass. i dumped out over half of my slurpee for possibly the first time in the history of my life. then i went to work at the video store. i've decided to orchestrate the firing of a coworker. he's old and i'd feel bad about it, but he sucks and he's a perv. at least thats my assumption based on very little. so anyway i'm going to convince my boss to fire him. she seems to like him, but i don't want to work with him. i don't know if this will make any sense, but he touches too much. like not in inappropriate places but just ina creepy type of way. like he'll touch someones arm or hand when he says something to them. and today this customer complained about him to me. i don't know if the touching thing made sense, most people would probably interpret it as being friendly but i don't know. i get a vibe from the guy and my ability to read guys based on very little is impressive. so anyway, maybe he won't be able to pay for his medications or something after this. now that i think about it, i don't have very much guilt going on right now, my last few gfs are in good relationships, i haven't really done anything bad in awhile. i don't know my boss well enough to feel bad about lying to her. so ya, i could use some. i love curb your enthusiasm. "it's a little too saucy." it seems like i had more to say but it has escaped me at the moment.