revelation
so maybe im having a revelation. why am i such a rock? i feel so drowned in pity all the time kuz all i do is think about my problems and i cant release them. this might sound retarded but i think all i need is an ear to listen. someone to just schedule a time to just talk and talk about our lives. becuase i never do. i always feel awkward when i try to talk to someone about my problems.
last night was amazing in more ways than one. i was able to release all my anger and my emotions. it took lots of alcohol but when i woke up today i felt pretty good. i honestly havent cried like that in months. and ive been thinking all day that all i want to do is just talk to somebody so i can just release all the negative things i feel and make them go away. i want that attachment where i can just have a shoulder to cry on and someone to hold my hand to pull me back up.
i always worry about myself and yet i show all my worries for others. i put others before me ill admit it. but damn, i forgot to think about myself. i enjoy lending a shoulder to cry on but i dont seem to have one. im not saying im lonely. because i definitely dont feel lonely. i just feel like i need to be more open with myself instead of hiding under the bed.
talk about one hell rant...give me a break, im goin off of 3 hours of sleep and an 8 hour worked shift.
last night was amazing in more ways than one. i was able to release all my anger and my emotions. it took lots of alcohol but when i woke up today i felt pretty good. i honestly havent cried like that in months. and ive been thinking all day that all i want to do is just talk to somebody so i can just release all the negative things i feel and make them go away. i want that attachment where i can just have a shoulder to cry on and someone to hold my hand to pull me back up.
i always worry about myself and yet i show all my worries for others. i put others before me ill admit it. but damn, i forgot to think about myself. i enjoy lending a shoulder to cry on but i dont seem to have one. im not saying im lonely. because i definitely dont feel lonely. i just feel like i need to be more open with myself instead of hiding under the bed.
talk about one hell rant...give me a break, im goin off of 3 hours of sleep and an 8 hour worked shift.