nothing but a waste of my love
i feel so out of reality. i feel hurt, depressed, shocked and numb all at once. ive done nothing but give my love and attention and i end up getting thrown in front of a bus? i put in so many damn tears and heartache for her! i cant believe i just spent 5 months working for something that was doomed to fail anyways? she owes me 5 fucking months of my life that i spent wasting on her. 5 FUCKING MONTHS.
sometimes its hard to take a gasp of air when i think about it. the person i thought i knew vanished. i was on my knees pleading for my self-respect. thankfully i chose it...is it wrong to miss her? probably not because i miss the person i thought she was.
i need to be saved. i need to stop hiding. i need to be pinched just to see if the numbness has gone away.
sometimes its hard to take a gasp of air when i think about it. the person i thought i knew vanished. i was on my knees pleading for my self-respect. thankfully i chose it...is it wrong to miss her? probably not because i miss the person i thought she was.
i need to be saved. i need to stop hiding. i need to be pinched just to see if the numbness has gone away.