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Hrm..I guess I've been busy lately,not so much as doing physical activity..but a zillion thoughts going through my mind constantly,I even dream about some things..So in no particular order here are a few.....
- Chris's And Mine 2 Year Anni.. (yes I know it's far away..but I'm wanting to do something big)
- Friends..(..I have a problem with letting people in and trusting them,when they shouldn't be..I like to think of myself as a good judge of character,but I guess not)
- A certain individual who's a pain in my ass,and whom I really can't stand..
So lately,I've been uber sick..sore throat,nausea,breathing problems,and a terrible cough.It just really sucks,so it has me down and not wanting to do much at all.But I've been thinking about my Boo Bear,but that's no different from any other day..We've been together 15 months,and they've been the greatest of my life..and I wouldn't trade our time together for anything in the world..
As for the second issue,I have let a lot of people,mainly males,but even some females..in and I truly thought they were my friends,and happy that I was happy for ONCE in my life..but it turns out that the males just wanted to get in my pants,and spread false shit about me,and try to ruin Chris & my relationship..But apparently that didn't work..now did it.So screw you fuckers..And as for the females,they all just talked shit about me and one did/is trying to get with my boyfriend..I think that's what pisses me off the most..the fact that you consider someone your best friend and they would do something shady like that.I mean 13 years..I mean come on..that's just superbly low.
I guess the third kind of ties in with the last thing,but then the person turned and started talking about me to MY boyfriend..I mean how fucking stupid are you?But yeah I really don't feel like elaborating on that.
Eek..it's like 2 a.m..and I'm still up.Heh..maybe I have insomnia or something.But I just can't sleep,well I probably could,I guess it's just cause I have stuff to do.But I went to check on Chris a little while ago,and he looks so angelic when he sleeps,I just had to give him a kiss.And he didn't even wake up,so that was good,cause I would have felt bad if I had woken him up.Ahh I love him so much,Gah..it's so incredible,the feeling I get just knowing he is mine..and knowing he is not going anywhere.It just warms me to the core.Anywho,I'm done babbling,I'm off to read my new book "In The Heart Of The Night" by Barbara Delinksy..I love Chris sooo very much.
Rah..So G'night folks.
x0xo -Sar- x0x0