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I'm so confused of how to think, very much a complacent state of mind. I have no idea what to do but I'm okay with myself. He is so unstable it used to drive me crazy but now I'm okay. I just want to live and be happy and healthy. I know thats alot to ask for with all the abnormalties of the world, saddness and other obstacles to get in the way. But right now I am doing just fine.
School is almost over and I am going to miss this scenery. All the people that make up this campus are wonderful. Sullen thoughts are always hard to bare. Papers are scary when you don't have the motivation to finish them up and even scarier when you don't know how to start. Bright days are so happy yet so sad. I miss my mommy and I want to see Beth's baby. My nails are really short I should probably paint them soon. Maybe I'll paint them, I cleaned my room yesterday. I need to sweep it, need to talk to my advisor and need to fix this computer. Very important taking more things home. hmm such a weird mood.
Not really ready to grow up. I'm staggering in my youth, hoping to stay in this time zone. My days are drifting from me steadily getting faster, whats going on? Why are you mean to me, hurt me and drive me crazy? He doesn't care about himself thats why. Thats why people treat you horrible didn't you know? They do it because something is wrong with them and to lessen their pain.
School is almost over and I am going to miss this scenery. All the people that make up this campus are wonderful. Sullen thoughts are always hard to bare. Papers are scary when you don't have the motivation to finish them up and even scarier when you don't know how to start. Bright days are so happy yet so sad. I miss my mommy and I want to see Beth's baby. My nails are really short I should probably paint them soon. Maybe I'll paint them, I cleaned my room yesterday. I need to sweep it, need to talk to my advisor and need to fix this computer. Very important taking more things home. hmm such a weird mood.
Not really ready to grow up. I'm staggering in my youth, hoping to stay in this time zone. My days are drifting from me steadily getting faster, whats going on? Why are you mean to me, hurt me and drive me crazy? He doesn't care about himself thats why. Thats why people treat you horrible didn't you know? They do it because something is wrong with them and to lessen their pain.