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I feel this feeling of "why the hell am I doing and why the hell am I letting it happen?" I have so much to offer in general. I'm there for my friends, I go to school and try to make the best grades I can because of course my parents are paying for it, trying to help my pregnant friend thats about to have her baby in a month, trying to see my new little cousin, praying that my friend doesn't have \ cervica cancer.
My boyfriend is the one giving me the biggest problems. Yes i love him, hes wonderful and excited and awesome all at the same time but sometimes I feel dejected. I always thought that the girl was supposed to be treated like she was on top of the world. And yes I feel like that well over and beyond 100% when I'm there but I need more than that. I want to be able to call my boyfriend and talk to him for hours because he wants to and not just because he has to. I want him to be able to establish a life of his own and not one his friends bring him to. I want him to be able to make the best every moment represented to him instead of looking at them as unattainable.
I'm tired of being question by my way of doing things as if they were somehow unheard of. Yes lots of ideas are unheard of but thats what our second amendment allowed us the freedom to think and represent it in anyway we damn well feel like it.
I believe in a balance. You should never study too hard because than your missing out on nature, the sun and all the other wonderful mysteries of our world. I don't think you should over dramatize in relationship because it will always let you down and you just have to know how to deal. Most the time it should make you happy and human nature always lends a little bit of conflict. Family is always important whether they don't agree with your sense of style or the way you go about life , they loved you enough to watch you grow and take care of you. Friends are the most supportive people you'll find and if you can find a great one keep them. You always have to worry about the jealousy, the misery and horrible factors but if they don't seem the write person for the topic. Then there are plenty of friends that can help you with it. Balance is the trust key to making your life as sane as possible. I can't have to much of one thing and not enough of another. I can not and will not operate like that.
My boyfriend is the one giving me the biggest problems. Yes i love him, hes wonderful and excited and awesome all at the same time but sometimes I feel dejected. I always thought that the girl was supposed to be treated like she was on top of the world. And yes I feel like that well over and beyond 100% when I'm there but I need more than that. I want to be able to call my boyfriend and talk to him for hours because he wants to and not just because he has to. I want him to be able to establish a life of his own and not one his friends bring him to. I want him to be able to make the best every moment represented to him instead of looking at them as unattainable.
I'm tired of being question by my way of doing things as if they were somehow unheard of. Yes lots of ideas are unheard of but thats what our second amendment allowed us the freedom to think and represent it in anyway we damn well feel like it.
I believe in a balance. You should never study too hard because than your missing out on nature, the sun and all the other wonderful mysteries of our world. I don't think you should over dramatize in relationship because it will always let you down and you just have to know how to deal. Most the time it should make you happy and human nature always lends a little bit of conflict. Family is always important whether they don't agree with your sense of style or the way you go about life , they loved you enough to watch you grow and take care of you. Friends are the most supportive people you'll find and if you can find a great one keep them. You always have to worry about the jealousy, the misery and horrible factors but if they don't seem the write person for the topic. Then there are plenty of friends that can help you with it. Balance is the trust key to making your life as sane as possible. I can't have to much of one thing and not enough of another. I can not and will not operate like that.