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ok first of all...I got over Sean...and I guess he did not wanna b friends with me anymore...well I started cing this kid named Kurt...and I feel in love...and we went out for about 2m. and then we broke up...bc I was not happy...bc I got scared that what happened with me and Sean would happen...with me and him and we would stop being friends...and I did not want that 2 happin...so I pushed away...unsure of what to do...and no one got it...and I just keep away...I was still there 4 him...but it was not the same...we I just found out that he fingered this girl that I know...and I dont know how 2 feel...bc I love him and he keeps telling me he loves me and I just dont know...I feel like shit...and I know that I shoul...I did wrong...and I told him somethin very mean...I told him if I could go back and do it all over again...that I would pick Sean over him 1 million times...and it hurt him...and he toldme when he dumped me that if I wanted to be with him I could but we had to be friends or nothing...and not after this he is telling me that I can b friends with him or not anything...I just dont know what to do...he told me he could not tell me that he would never do anything with her again...and it hurt me...and I just dont know if I should not be mad at him or just be mad at him...this girl Jill...well she scared of me...and Im not going to do anything...bc she did nothing...Im not mad at her...and Im not mad at him...Im just hurt...bc after Sean...I told mself and god I would never let myselfget hurt again...and I did...I just dont know...I wish I did...when he told me about it I got so sick...I through up all over...abd I just dont know...he is friends with all my friends...and he talked to like all of them...and he never told her he was in love with me...and I this he should...not that she would care...and I just feel so bad...and I know there is some ppl out there that think this should happen to me...and all the can say is haha u got dumped...and Im sorry the feel that way...well I have 2 go bc...2 marrow Im going to him house to fix all this...I just hope to GOD that everything goes ok...