i need to vent
ahh! im gettin soo frustrated wit my family and everything...like it has come to the point where i dont wanna have family anymore they r supposed to care and be nice to u and wat not and mine is completely opposite of that...they put u thro soo much shit u have no idea just this week me and my dad got into a 3 fight bout some shit and he said to me some stuff that hurt me soo fuckin badly, also my mom decided to yell at me bc my father didnt do something and i get shit for it!! wtf?? and its not just yellin type fights if u no wat i mean...i seriously just cant take it anymore!!! everything is just soo like ahhhh!! for the past 2 weeks ive cried myself to sleep and i hate doin that...i just hate bein stuck in the middle and never pulled out of it...im soo tired of family...the only other person that understands me is my aunt bc my mom and my nana r like twins and both pysco...my aunt is livin wit my nana bc my nana helps my aunt wit her baby...i was talkin to my aunt the other day and i felt like i was talkin to myself bc we felt the same exact way and i know that shes on my side thank god!! i finally have soem1 that understands where im coming from. it just sucks that i cant talk to her all the time bc shes soo busy wit the baby. i was talkin to her bout cryin myself to sleep and shes like i do that every nite and at that moment i felt a relief...that im not the only one that is goin thro this right now...eventho i no that and i no there is other kids that go thro it worse than i do but i didnt think bout it when i was upset. i really just wanna b happy in my life and i honestly dont think it will happen...like ever. im seriously considering when i go to college not comin back on breaks and shit bc every1 gets insane over the holidays....this is my most dreded time of the year and it shouldnt b, its supposed to b happy and a time to spend wit family and b HAPPY. but no not me im torn between two families my moms and my dads..my mom hates my dad so whenever im with him and come home my mom starts shit wit me and i end up getting a couple bruises and it fuckin sucks bc i dont deserve wat im gettin bc i go and spend time wit my father. i honestly truly cant take it anymmore!! its really wearing me down emotionally and physcially im just ready to fuckin explode!!!