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So I just recently got dumped. Yeah, not to happy about that. Its my fault though, I know better then to get my hopes up, Im not all that suitable for love, or it possibly could be the other way around. Meh, Im too young for "love" anways, I shouldn't worry about that shit now. Playing hard to get is fun, however, is hard as fuck when you care for the other person. I think all the stupid drama is starting to fade away. I hope so, Im sick of all of that bullshit. Ive been thinking about love and relationships alot, and I think were too young to be getting so involved in relationships at such a young age, Im not going mention the name of who Im talking about because that would be wrong of me, but she knows who she is. Im not gonna sit here and tell out the story because its not my story, or my buisness to tell, but its fucked and stupid and a total waste of time. Something you'll be looking back at in a few years and saying "Wow I was such an idiot." Hmm...good stories to tell the kids. Its rediculous how girls waste thier times on these pointless highshool relationships, and let themselves get so involed in it when it's not going to even matter. I know its a part of growing, relationships and breakups ect, but some girls get way too involed at such a young age, and they waste so much time of thier life on some stupid guy and end up regretting. Girls give so much up and let guys get the best of them, and end up heartbroken in the end, and the guy doesn't really care. We should be having fun right now, boyfriends are fun to have but when you're 14, not fun too get too involed with. Maybe sometime later in highschool yeah, but now, no. You should be having fun right now, and worrying about guys.
Mrs.D left a few weeks ago :( That was a shitty day for me Sam and Jame. Never did the three of us thing we would get so attatched to a teacher. The unexpected things that can happen so suddenly out of no where is crazy. I miss her so much. She was our comfort zone, the one thing the three of us had to talk to and go to when something was wrong, she took fucking place as my mother, now shes gone. Ahh I hope she comes back. She gave me this poem that keeps running through my head. All Ive been doing is thinking about so much shit. I wrote some more lyrics today. There my favortie lyrics I have ever wroten, and they say it all. Well heres the poem Mrs.D gave me.
I have learned....
That you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved,
the rest is up to them
I have learned....
That no matter how much I care
some people just don't care back
I have learned.....
That its not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts
I have learned...
That you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes
after that you had better know something.
I have learned......
That you shouldn't compare yourself to
the best others can do.
I have learned....
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life
I have learned....
That its taking me a long time to become the
person I want to be
I have learned....
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words, it may be the last time you see them
I have learned...
That you can keep going long after you can't
I have learned....
That we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I have learned....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I have learned....
That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion
fades and there had better be something to take its place.
I have learned....
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it has to be done, regardless to of consequences
I have learned...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score
I have learned....
That my bestfriend and I can do anything or nothing
and have the best time.
I have learned....
That sometimes when the people you expect to
kick you when you're down will be the ones
to help you get back up
I have learned....
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to
be angry, butt hat doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I have learned...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
long distance. Same is true of love
I have learned...
That just because somone doesn't love you the way you
want doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have
I have learned....
THAT MATURITY HAS MORE TO DO WITH WHAT TYPES OF EXPERIENCS YOU'VE HAD AND WHAT YOU'VE LEARNED FROM THEM AND LESS TO DO WITH HOW MANY BIRTHDAYS YOU'VE CELEBRATED.
I have learned....
That you should never tell a child thier dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few
things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I have learned....
That your family won't always be there for you.
It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and
love you and teach you to trust people again. Familiesy aren't all biological.
I have learned...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and you must forgive them for that.
I have learned...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to
learn to forgive yourself.
I have learned....
That no matter how bad you heart has been broken the world doesn't stop
for your grief.
I have learned....
That our backround and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but
we are responsible for who we become.
I have learned....
That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each
other and just because they don't argue doesn't mean they do.
I have learned....
That we dont have to chnage friends if we understand that friends change.
I have learned...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life
forever.
I have learned....
That no matter how hard you try to protect your children, they will eventually
get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
I have learned...
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even
know you.
I have learned....
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to
you, you will find the strength to help.
I have learned...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I have learned....
That its hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not
hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe in.
I have learned-and learned-and learned.
Amazing poem. Gives you something to think about. So Im about to pass out. Goodnight.
Mrs.D left a few weeks ago :( That was a shitty day for me Sam and Jame. Never did the three of us thing we would get so attatched to a teacher. The unexpected things that can happen so suddenly out of no where is crazy. I miss her so much. She was our comfort zone, the one thing the three of us had to talk to and go to when something was wrong, she took fucking place as my mother, now shes gone. Ahh I hope she comes back. She gave me this poem that keeps running through my head. All Ive been doing is thinking about so much shit. I wrote some more lyrics today. There my favortie lyrics I have ever wroten, and they say it all. Well heres the poem Mrs.D gave me.
I have learned....
That you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved,
the rest is up to them
I have learned....
That no matter how much I care
some people just don't care back
I have learned.....
That its not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts
I have learned...
That you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes
after that you had better know something.
I have learned......
That you shouldn't compare yourself to
the best others can do.
I have learned....
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life
I have learned....
That its taking me a long time to become the
person I want to be
I have learned....
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words, it may be the last time you see them
I have learned...
That you can keep going long after you can't
I have learned....
That we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I have learned....
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I have learned....
That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion
fades and there had better be something to take its place.
I have learned....
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it has to be done, regardless to of consequences
I have learned...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score
I have learned....
That my bestfriend and I can do anything or nothing
and have the best time.
I have learned....
That sometimes when the people you expect to
kick you when you're down will be the ones
to help you get back up
I have learned....
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to
be angry, butt hat doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I have learned...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
long distance. Same is true of love
I have learned...
That just because somone doesn't love you the way you
want doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have
I have learned....
THAT MATURITY HAS MORE TO DO WITH WHAT TYPES OF EXPERIENCS YOU'VE HAD AND WHAT YOU'VE LEARNED FROM THEM AND LESS TO DO WITH HOW MANY BIRTHDAYS YOU'VE CELEBRATED.
I have learned....
That you should never tell a child thier dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few
things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I have learned....
That your family won't always be there for you.
It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and
love you and teach you to trust people again. Familiesy aren't all biological.
I have learned...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and you must forgive them for that.
I have learned...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to
learn to forgive yourself.
I have learned....
That no matter how bad you heart has been broken the world doesn't stop
for your grief.
I have learned....
That our backround and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but
we are responsible for who we become.
I have learned....
That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each
other and just because they don't argue doesn't mean they do.
I have learned....
That we dont have to chnage friends if we understand that friends change.
I have learned...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life
forever.
I have learned....
That no matter how hard you try to protect your children, they will eventually
get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
I have learned...
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even
know you.
I have learned....
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to
you, you will find the strength to help.
I have learned...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I have learned....
That its hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not
hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe in.
I have learned-and learned-and learned.
Amazing poem. Gives you something to think about. So Im about to pass out. Goodnight.