Reflections 2011
I always make it a point to sit myself down, have a little alone time and reflect on the happenings for the year before a new year is ushered in.
Reading through my past entries for last year for a little bit ... This was a short excerpt of what i wrote for last year's:
2008 was a better year, and i hope 2010 will be as well.
2008 was a year where dreams were realised, ambitions recognised and relationships blossomed. I liked 2008. It was a good year.
2009 had lots of crazy moments, good and bad. Mixed memories, mixed emotions ... uncertainty.
I don't even want to bother to set aside expectations for the new year, whatever comes.
The rest can be found here http://xoxolishayyy.livejournal.com/?skip=20
I wouldn't say 2010 would be the best of years but it certainly was one of the most significant for me.
The best way to put it, was that it was a journey and learning experience. Certainly alot has happened in the year alone, great milestones and decisions were made - many of which have and will have resounding implications on the years to come.
The three most significant events in 2010 would probably have to be ...
Firstly, graduating. The end of my academic life - for now. I really enjoyed the 3 years i spent in Australia and the decision to return to Singapore was a tough one to make. As much i love Singapore, what i loved even more was being a nomad, figuratively. I really liked shuttling here and there every few months between Australia and Singapore. To me, that's the best kind of life i could ever have. It was the best of both worlds. To me, it was very gratifying and i felt that it really gave my life a never-ending supply of excitement, novelty and freshness. When i got sick of one place, i'd fly away to another. And the cycle continues. My decision to return to Singapore for good stemmed from a variety of factors - the most significant being that, Singapore really is home. It's where my family and best friends are ... bonds which i wouldn't trade for the world. Also, as most people would know ... i've had a list of firms which i've targeted since i decided upon my career direction for the future. Perth, didn't have any of my target firms. Which means that, i had to move to Syndey or Melbourne to work. The thought of relocating to a foreign state all over again didn't really evoke much appreciation from me.
This brings me to the second significant event in my life. Career wise, i'm living my dream right now. As mentioned earlier, i've had a target list of firms i wanted to join once i entered the workforce. As people close to me already know, i'm very particular about the "brand" value of a company. Loosely translated, it means i always target the "big fives" of any industry. The top. The best. Work with the best, learn from the best. Check. Done that. It's only been two months into my job, but i really like it. Doesn't really feel like a job and i think i'm going pretty well.
Lastly, the third event in my life would be relationship centered. Hah. I don't know where to start. 2010 marked an end to one of my longest standing relationships. Initially, i didn't know if it was the right decision to make or if i should have fought to salvage it instead of giving up ... The thing is, for me, i'd never chase. I've never done it before, and frankly ... I believe that if something is meant to be, its meant to be. There's no need to push for it. You can't fight love or fate. I agree that a certain level of fight is apparent and necessary in all relationships, but it shouldn't be that hard either. Sometimes, things said and done can't be fixed or taken back. Being young and playful is no excuse but when its all said and done, i apologise for any wrong doings and hurt on my part but as in every relationship, it takes two to clap. With that said, i definitely learnt so much from everything, and i don't have any regrets. It's taught me how to communicate better, be less selfish and cherish love when you find it. The whole thing has taught me one very important thing about myself.
I know how some people can learn to love people and how i hear people saying that they would marry someone who loves them more than they do. For me, i learnt that i would never be this person. In 2010, i've definately met and dated people whom i knew would give the world for me. But that's not enough and would never be enough for me. Most people i'm close to would know this, i don't fall in love easily. It takes alot to make me love you. I'm selective and i'm cynical. For me, i need someone whom i can love just as much as they love me. Otherwise, i'd just MIA after awhile because there just isn't that needed spark. Sometime mid year after my initial break-up, i tried everything to get me back to that place where i could find that sort of love again. Where i could feel as much as i received. But no, it didn't feel the same. I wrote this entry under lock and key ... Quoting from Vertical Horizon's "Everything You Want"
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
I guess it best describes what i felt at that point of time. Tried giving someone whom i knew loved me a lot a shot, but it just wasn't the same. Came back, tried dating random people. Wasn't the same.
But this brings me to the next chapter in my life and perhaps, the best thing that's happened to me so far.
You. Trust that i'll give you my all and hold on to you. I know i've had a past, and that i can be playful but i think i've proven to you or at least hopefully shown you how much you mean to me already. The past year has shown me what i want in my life and i want you in it. You're the one i want to wake up to every morning, every day. You make me want to give you my all, for some reason ... i can't explain. When i told you the other day, that i've never treated anyone this way before ... i meant every single word, from the bottom of my heart. When you came along, i dumped everyone else i was dating. My friends even asked me if i was for real cos they've never seen me so faithful before lol. I hope that's worth something to show you how much u mean to me, baby. I've learned how hard love is to come by, how difficult it is to find someone i can love just as much as they'd love me. You're my rock, you've given me the much needed stability in my life and brought me so much joy. I'll be holding you close to my heart. Today, and everyday (:
I'm never one to live in the past and there isn't a single thing/period in my life as of yet that i would want to take back/re-live/change. I believe that EVERY SINGLE thing in life is a learned experience and as they say, cest la vie and life goes on.
Every experience in life i take in my stride, for it moulds me as a person. I'm glad for every single person who has been a part of my life for 2010, because each and every one of you has a part in shaping the person i am and have become today.
SO ANYWAYS,
OKAY LAHH. Enough of the sentimental crap. Feels like the mood is getting to solemn. LOL. I actually wanted to pen down my new year's resolutions but i think the above has been information overload enough so ... to end off, some pics!
Went to PLAY on Thursday ...
Went with a group and what do you know? EVERYONE disappeared and split up and it was only me and connie left ahahahahhahaha stayed till closing!!! good night!!! ahahhhahah apart from being molested by girls. LOL!
And how did i spend my new years? Out for dinner and shopping with bb and the the girls. and home hehehehe
awww!! bb wearing my "special" shirt aahhahahaha
OMGG yes! Went to Paragon and did some shopping for wallets. LOVES!
I also bought Liese's hair color! Never done DIY before, but my colleague used this and her hair color was like SUPER fabulous! So, gotta give it a try. Anyone used it before? Reviews?
Paella dad cooked! SUPER YUMS!
Have a blessed new year, everyone!
xoxo
Reading through my past entries for last year for a little bit ... This was a short excerpt of what i wrote for last year's:
2008 was a better year, and i hope 2010 will be as well.
2008 was a year where dreams were realised, ambitions recognised and relationships blossomed. I liked 2008. It was a good year.
2009 had lots of crazy moments, good and bad. Mixed memories, mixed emotions ... uncertainty.
I don't even want to bother to set aside expectations for the new year, whatever comes.
The rest can be found here http://xoxolishayyy.livejournal.com/?skip=20
I wouldn't say 2010 would be the best of years but it certainly was one of the most significant for me.
The best way to put it, was that it was a journey and learning experience. Certainly alot has happened in the year alone, great milestones and decisions were made - many of which have and will have resounding implications on the years to come.
The three most significant events in 2010 would probably have to be ...
Firstly, graduating. The end of my academic life - for now. I really enjoyed the 3 years i spent in Australia and the decision to return to Singapore was a tough one to make. As much i love Singapore, what i loved even more was being a nomad, figuratively. I really liked shuttling here and there every few months between Australia and Singapore. To me, that's the best kind of life i could ever have. It was the best of both worlds. To me, it was very gratifying and i felt that it really gave my life a never-ending supply of excitement, novelty and freshness. When i got sick of one place, i'd fly away to another. And the cycle continues. My decision to return to Singapore for good stemmed from a variety of factors - the most significant being that, Singapore really is home. It's where my family and best friends are ... bonds which i wouldn't trade for the world. Also, as most people would know ... i've had a list of firms which i've targeted since i decided upon my career direction for the future. Perth, didn't have any of my target firms. Which means that, i had to move to Syndey or Melbourne to work. The thought of relocating to a foreign state all over again didn't really evoke much appreciation from me.
This brings me to the second significant event in my life. Career wise, i'm living my dream right now. As mentioned earlier, i've had a target list of firms i wanted to join once i entered the workforce. As people close to me already know, i'm very particular about the "brand" value of a company. Loosely translated, it means i always target the "big fives" of any industry. The top. The best. Work with the best, learn from the best. Check. Done that. It's only been two months into my job, but i really like it. Doesn't really feel like a job and i think i'm going pretty well.
Lastly, the third event in my life would be relationship centered. Hah. I don't know where to start. 2010 marked an end to one of my longest standing relationships. Initially, i didn't know if it was the right decision to make or if i should have fought to salvage it instead of giving up ... The thing is, for me, i'd never chase. I've never done it before, and frankly ... I believe that if something is meant to be, its meant to be. There's no need to push for it. You can't fight love or fate. I agree that a certain level of fight is apparent and necessary in all relationships, but it shouldn't be that hard either. Sometimes, things said and done can't be fixed or taken back. Being young and playful is no excuse but when its all said and done, i apologise for any wrong doings and hurt on my part but as in every relationship, it takes two to clap. With that said, i definitely learnt so much from everything, and i don't have any regrets. It's taught me how to communicate better, be less selfish and cherish love when you find it. The whole thing has taught me one very important thing about myself.
I know how some people can learn to love people and how i hear people saying that they would marry someone who loves them more than they do. For me, i learnt that i would never be this person. In 2010, i've definately met and dated people whom i knew would give the world for me. But that's not enough and would never be enough for me. Most people i'm close to would know this, i don't fall in love easily. It takes alot to make me love you. I'm selective and i'm cynical. For me, i need someone whom i can love just as much as they love me. Otherwise, i'd just MIA after awhile because there just isn't that needed spark. Sometime mid year after my initial break-up, i tried everything to get me back to that place where i could find that sort of love again. Where i could feel as much as i received. But no, it didn't feel the same. I wrote this entry under lock and key ... Quoting from Vertical Horizon's "Everything You Want"
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
I guess it best describes what i felt at that point of time. Tried giving someone whom i knew loved me a lot a shot, but it just wasn't the same. Came back, tried dating random people. Wasn't the same.
But this brings me to the next chapter in my life and perhaps, the best thing that's happened to me so far.
You. Trust that i'll give you my all and hold on to you. I know i've had a past, and that i can be playful but i think i've proven to you or at least hopefully shown you how much you mean to me already. The past year has shown me what i want in my life and i want you in it. You're the one i want to wake up to every morning, every day. You make me want to give you my all, for some reason ... i can't explain. When i told you the other day, that i've never treated anyone this way before ... i meant every single word, from the bottom of my heart. When you came along, i dumped everyone else i was dating. My friends even asked me if i was for real cos they've never seen me so faithful before lol. I hope that's worth something to show you how much u mean to me, baby. I've learned how hard love is to come by, how difficult it is to find someone i can love just as much as they'd love me. You're my rock, you've given me the much needed stability in my life and brought me so much joy. I'll be holding you close to my heart. Today, and everyday (:
I'm never one to live in the past and there isn't a single thing/period in my life as of yet that i would want to take back/re-live/change. I believe that EVERY SINGLE thing in life is a learned experience and as they say, cest la vie and life goes on.
Every experience in life i take in my stride, for it moulds me as a person. I'm glad for every single person who has been a part of my life for 2010, because each and every one of you has a part in shaping the person i am and have become today.
SO ANYWAYS,
OKAY LAHH. Enough of the sentimental crap. Feels like the mood is getting to solemn. LOL. I actually wanted to pen down my new year's resolutions but i think the above has been information overload enough so ... to end off, some pics!
Went to PLAY on Thursday ...
Went with a group and what do you know? EVERYONE disappeared and split up and it was only me and connie left ahahahahhahaha stayed till closing!!! good night!!! ahahhhahah apart from being molested by girls. LOL!
And how did i spend my new years? Out for dinner and shopping with bb and the the girls. and home hehehehe
awww!! bb wearing my "special" shirt aahhahahaha
OMGG yes! Went to Paragon and did some shopping for wallets. LOVES!
I also bought Liese's hair color! Never done DIY before, but my colleague used this and her hair color was like SUPER fabulous! So, gotta give it a try. Anyone used it before? Reviews?
Paella dad cooked! SUPER YUMS!
Have a blessed new year, everyone!
xoxo