I dont know i just have alot to say
Omg theirs been alot on my mind lately......not just with boys........like today we piked outmy moms dress 4mat bat mitzvah but i started to cry because my dada wasnt there to help pick, and it made me realy really upset because usually he would come with me and my mom to pick out ellagant dresses thats why i avoid going with her for other peoples parties cause i get really up set....... and i dint pick the dress i like i picked the dress my dad would have picked........and today me and my mom were talkin aboutmy bat mitzvah and how she doesnt want me to be really sad at it cause the only rason im doing it is for my dad... and now im not sure i f i wana do it cause wen i think about it with out him their makes me soo sad that all i can do is cry and i just have a feelin at my bat mitzvah that im gunna cry alot and i dont wana........ like i wana tell my mom that but i cant cause she will lwt me not have a bat and i dont wana do that to my dad....... why cant he still be here?......
AN THEN THERE'S BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!! theres the hole andrew fight (cbr 04 u no wut im tlkin about!) like some of the things he said are still in my head...... like he used ..... and all kinds of things that i just wana no are tehy true and i havet asked him even though i should and im gunna...... and then theres DAVID i think i blew it the otha day wen i acted prude which is unusual for me i should have gotten up and went onto the bed with him.....but all i could think about was mine and anas tlk like the night b4 ..... also mikie wtf is up with him hes so odd hes tellin me how much he likesme and stuff then 10 min lata a slut cuz i wont send him a nude pik of me online umm sry swetti i have morals and theirnot being a teenage porn star! plus who the freak would do that? thats so gross and then he hmakes fun of me well sry that imnot like his sluty friends in ny, also then askin me to fibgure me umm sry dont ask that was just odd, plus the fact ur not even home ur at sleep awaycamp and wont even c me wen im ny is jus weird and then makein up a fake fight for me to get mad at uand not wana c u just wont work sry! w/e why r boys soo confuseing?
AN THEN THERE'S BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!! theres the hole andrew fight (cbr 04 u no wut im tlkin about!) like some of the things he said are still in my head...... like he used ..... and all kinds of things that i just wana no are tehy true and i havet asked him even though i should and im gunna...... and then theres DAVID i think i blew it the otha day wen i acted prude which is unusual for me i should have gotten up and went onto the bed with him.....but all i could think about was mine and anas tlk like the night b4 ..... also mikie wtf is up with him hes so odd hes tellin me how much he likesme and stuff then 10 min lata a slut cuz i wont send him a nude pik of me online umm sry swetti i have morals and theirnot being a teenage porn star! plus who the freak would do that? thats so gross and then he hmakes fun of me well sry that imnot like his sluty friends in ny, also then askin me to fibgure me umm sry dont ask that was just odd, plus the fact ur not even home ur at sleep awaycamp and wont even c me wen im ny is jus weird and then makein up a fake fight for me to get mad at uand not wana c u just wont work sry! w/e why r boys soo confuseing?