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hmm. someone told me i lack emotions. this is true. funny.. i always thought i was an emotional person.. but.. not in the past year i guess unless it was sadness and that was like.. a few night of the month. so i have a new theory.. if u listen to enough Bright Eyes.. u start to lose ur emotions. because the music is sooo sad.. that well.. after listening to it nonstop for a year nothing else can really affect u.
sitting across the table at Chili's the other day tryin to come up with things to talk to Phil about i realized i dont give a shit about much of anything nowadays, kassidy and i talked about this in the car the other day, we think it might have something to do with the aging process like something to do with the fact that as u age you go thru so much crap that suddenly you just dont feel anything about it anymore. ah well.. anyways. @ Chili's and im bored out of my mind thinking about golf..wishing i wasnt there tryin to come up with things to say cause im really bad at that. so yeah.. there were lots of this.. " yeah i know... *pause*.. maybe *pause* *stare* *sip* um.. yeah so.. tonights thing.. *pause*" UGH! anyways.
last time i cried was when i found those pictures.. and that was like months and months ago. i shed two tears for the notebook though.
brokenskies84: hahah! yeah i was later " jon i think jeff was lookin at my boobs when i was in ur room" " jesika.. how could he not, honestly they are huge!" hah
theSTUDman013: yea
theSTUDman013: what did you expect
theSTUDman013: i have never seen you in a bikini
theSTUDman013: how could i not look at what you had to offere
theSTUDman013: offer*
brokenskies84: idk. haha
brokenskies84: " what you have to offer" i feel like a buffet
sitting across the table at Chili's the other day tryin to come up with things to talk to Phil about i realized i dont give a shit about much of anything nowadays, kassidy and i talked about this in the car the other day, we think it might have something to do with the aging process like something to do with the fact that as u age you go thru so much crap that suddenly you just dont feel anything about it anymore. ah well.. anyways. @ Chili's and im bored out of my mind thinking about golf..wishing i wasnt there tryin to come up with things to say cause im really bad at that. so yeah.. there were lots of this.. " yeah i know... *pause*.. maybe *pause* *stare* *sip* um.. yeah so.. tonights thing.. *pause*" UGH! anyways.
last time i cried was when i found those pictures.. and that was like months and months ago. i shed two tears for the notebook though.
brokenskies84: hahah! yeah i was later " jon i think jeff was lookin at my boobs when i was in ur room" " jesika.. how could he not, honestly they are huge!" hah
theSTUDman013: yea
theSTUDman013: what did you expect
theSTUDman013: i have never seen you in a bikini
theSTUDman013: how could i not look at what you had to offere
theSTUDman013: offer*
brokenskies84: idk. haha
brokenskies84: " what you have to offer" i feel like a buffet