A mid-summer night's dream.
I'm already half-way through my summer vacation.
Ergo, I must do as much as possible to evade the nearness of school starting.
Aside from the redundancy of my days spent isolating myself in my room doing nothing at all except catching up on AP reading or watching movies, I'm not exactly inactive. I do have a social life. But how much gallivanting can one really do when one can't drive yet? (Yep, it'll be another year before transportation will be at my own convenience--when the mother will finally allow me to obtain a license.)
At least it's a comfort to know that my social life is saved due to the friends that are willing to kidnap me from these sheltered walls and show me the carelessness of summer days: late-night drives, beaches, bonfires, joy rides, malls, reuniting with old pals I haven't seen for ages, and enjoying the mere presence of friends. :)
On the vantage, sleep has been superfluous. My sleeping hours range from 2 AM to the hours of 12-1 PM. More than the sleep I usually get in the duration of school days. Oh yes, and being able to watch Late-night with Conan O'brien, night after night, is a satiable delight. ^_^ Can't complain there. Although, it recently occurred to me that it's a difficulty trying to sleep earlier, even if I attempt to lie in bed at 11 PM, my mind drifts and before I know it, I've been lying in bed for 4 hours not knowing as to where the time has gone. Sleeping in 'til noon must be all part of the summer sleeping process the teenage body experiences. That, or we're just plain lazy. I refuse to believe the latter.
Too many speculations have been floating into my head at night, especially when I'm in bed staring at the vastness of my ceiling. Thoughts of the future mostly. Senior year, college, change, adulthood. It's a scary feeling. The reality hasn't quite hit me yet, but I know it's there, it's inevitable. More often than not, I catch myself contemplating my relationship with various people--where it is now, and where it may lead to later on.
I prefer to think that change won't have an impact on my friendships/relationships--however, change is the only constant, and I know that in certain situations, friends will be lost, even the ones I hold close & dear. I'm not as cynical as others are when it comes to this. I'd rather be oblivious to the fact that my most beloved friends will always be here and that no circumstance will break that bond. It's better to think that way though. Let's you cherish the present instead of having to worry about what's to come, and what may come.
This entry of my brief summer recap seems to be longer than necessary. I guess that's what happens when I keep to myself for too long. Venting to someone in person is nice, but every once in a while, rambling about anything and everything to one's self in a journal, even if it doesn't make quite sense, is even nicer. Any form of release is therapeutic.
My itinerary of future anticipated summer happenings:
7/24 -- The OC Fair
7/25 -- Knott's Berry Farm
7/29-7/31 -- Las Vegas
8/10-8/12 -- ASB Camp @ UCSB
Should be fun. Photos and such will hopefully be posted up for some of these excursions.
XOXO - hannah
Ergo, I must do as much as possible to evade the nearness of school starting.
Aside from the redundancy of my days spent isolating myself in my room doing nothing at all except catching up on AP reading or watching movies, I'm not exactly inactive. I do have a social life. But how much gallivanting can one really do when one can't drive yet? (Yep, it'll be another year before transportation will be at my own convenience--when the mother will finally allow me to obtain a license.)
At least it's a comfort to know that my social life is saved due to the friends that are willing to kidnap me from these sheltered walls and show me the carelessness of summer days: late-night drives, beaches, bonfires, joy rides, malls, reuniting with old pals I haven't seen for ages, and enjoying the mere presence of friends. :)
On the vantage, sleep has been superfluous. My sleeping hours range from 2 AM to the hours of 12-1 PM. More than the sleep I usually get in the duration of school days. Oh yes, and being able to watch Late-night with Conan O'brien, night after night, is a satiable delight. ^_^ Can't complain there. Although, it recently occurred to me that it's a difficulty trying to sleep earlier, even if I attempt to lie in bed at 11 PM, my mind drifts and before I know it, I've been lying in bed for 4 hours not knowing as to where the time has gone. Sleeping in 'til noon must be all part of the summer sleeping process the teenage body experiences. That, or we're just plain lazy. I refuse to believe the latter.
Too many speculations have been floating into my head at night, especially when I'm in bed staring at the vastness of my ceiling. Thoughts of the future mostly. Senior year, college, change, adulthood. It's a scary feeling. The reality hasn't quite hit me yet, but I know it's there, it's inevitable. More often than not, I catch myself contemplating my relationship with various people--where it is now, and where it may lead to later on.
I prefer to think that change won't have an impact on my friendships/relationships--however, change is the only constant, and I know that in certain situations, friends will be lost, even the ones I hold close & dear. I'm not as cynical as others are when it comes to this. I'd rather be oblivious to the fact that my most beloved friends will always be here and that no circumstance will break that bond. It's better to think that way though. Let's you cherish the present instead of having to worry about what's to come, and what may come.
This entry of my brief summer recap seems to be longer than necessary. I guess that's what happens when I keep to myself for too long. Venting to someone in person is nice, but every once in a while, rambling about anything and everything to one's self in a journal, even if it doesn't make quite sense, is even nicer. Any form of release is therapeutic.
My itinerary of future anticipated summer happenings:
7/24 -- The OC Fair
7/25 -- Knott's Berry Farm
7/29-7/31 -- Las Vegas
8/10-8/12 -- ASB Camp @ UCSB
Should be fun. Photos and such will hopefully be posted up for some of these excursions.
XOXO - hannah