splahhh
its rele rele rele late.... orrrr... its rele rele rele earli? lol
gosh i rele needa go 2 bed || i juss cnt sleep
got internet bakk in mi room, its dial up BUT thats better than nothing.
i was just thinking, you know reading through old posts, notes, taking that "walk down memory lane" its kinda weird: when you get to the point in your life and you think all your friends around you are the ones your going 2 grow old knowing, sharing secrets with, you know the types that your kids are going 2 call "uncle/aunt" and things are going real good : school, things in the house, your future, just life in general; it all changes... and at first your world around you crashes, you feel betrayed, lost, skared, hurt, angry, jealous, upset, mad, and you feel as if the pain wont ever go away. sumtimes it just takes time... lots of time, and still then the memories are so clear, so great, you can sit there for hours smiling about them nd you get a fresh wind of all those emotions.... its ur choice tho: you can live your life dwelling on that or you can :move on: recently ive been dwelling on a lot of that nd it rele sux.. idk tho im trying ok u guyz. :sigh:
sumtimes i wish: i was one of those kids hu can say "o.. yea _(hometown)_ is so0o0 greatttt... juss imagine spending all your life living here -dripping in sarcasm-" because than i can honestly say.. i know that person, ive seen them change... it would be so great to say o yeaa we were friend since kindergarten or w.e nd juss being able to understand the WHOLE picture. moving sux, and i think im addicted to it cuz i rele rele rele want to move, North Carolina or Missouri sound way nice rite now.
life is just a wreck sometimes. theres so much i find miself opening my mouth to say- yet i just cant bring myself to spit it out.
^juss disregard that whole entry. its kinda like yea i juss thru miself a pity party... but sumtimes u juss gotta get it out sumwhere that is solid evidence that you can look bakk at and remember i got it out.. stop thinking about it
please don't hold me captive with the nightmares you know
gosh i rele needa go 2 bed || i juss cnt sleep
got internet bakk in mi room, its dial up BUT thats better than nothing.
i was just thinking, you know reading through old posts, notes, taking that "walk down memory lane" its kinda weird: when you get to the point in your life and you think all your friends around you are the ones your going 2 grow old knowing, sharing secrets with, you know the types that your kids are going 2 call "uncle/aunt" and things are going real good : school, things in the house, your future, just life in general; it all changes... and at first your world around you crashes, you feel betrayed, lost, skared, hurt, angry, jealous, upset, mad, and you feel as if the pain wont ever go away. sumtimes it just takes time... lots of time, and still then the memories are so clear, so great, you can sit there for hours smiling about them nd you get a fresh wind of all those emotions.... its ur choice tho: you can live your life dwelling on that or you can :move on: recently ive been dwelling on a lot of that nd it rele sux.. idk tho im trying ok u guyz. :sigh:
sumtimes i wish: i was one of those kids hu can say "o.. yea _(hometown)_ is so0o0 greatttt... juss imagine spending all your life living here -dripping in sarcasm-" because than i can honestly say.. i know that person, ive seen them change... it would be so great to say o yeaa we were friend since kindergarten or w.e nd juss being able to understand the WHOLE picture. moving sux, and i think im addicted to it cuz i rele rele rele want to move, North Carolina or Missouri sound way nice rite now.
life is just a wreck sometimes. theres so much i find miself opening my mouth to say- yet i just cant bring myself to spit it out.
^juss disregard that whole entry. its kinda like yea i juss thru miself a pity party... but sumtimes u juss gotta get it out sumwhere that is solid evidence that you can look bakk at and remember i got it out.. stop thinking about it
please don't hold me captive with the nightmares you know