sad night...
i think i made my night this way, by thinking of everything that would depress me, and by golly it worked.
well the first thing that made my night bad was, im alone, and i mean i know that sounds weird b/c im alone all the time, but tonight just feels different. i called naomi and she didn't sound like she was in a good mood, like she was depressed to, which made me even more lonely. i called to tell her that if she wasn't busy tomorrow call me, and she said she would, i wonder if she actually will. i was talking to her the other night, about how i was scared about her changing, and even though she says she wont or that i dont need to worry...i am. the three of us were talking today, and naomi has been left out of a lot of things, and she wonders why. i mean yea its great to have a boyfriend, and its great that they get along so well, but i mean she should really remember that her friends are here too. my mom always tells me that,and never to be one minded, and naomis not, but a lot of the time her mind is set on poppy, and thats y she doest miss out on alot. My 14th birthday party, she was out with poppy, 8th grade luau, she left with poppy and that was the last night as a group that we hung out, and she decided that she would have more fun wit him, and this might sound dumb, but now that I think about it, that hurts my feelings. but shes not as bad as some girls, but i still miss her and i hope it doesn't get worse in high school.
another thing that got to me tonight was the talk i had with my mom a few nights ago. im so worried that i will have to move...and july will come sooner that i think. i talked to jessie tonight and we both thought that it would be best if i told sophia now, and not wait till i found out and her think i knew all along, but i'm worried it will bum us both out and our summer together will be ruined b/c thats all we would be able to think of, and count down the days we have together, instead of counting down the days the the two of us will walk into freshman year together. And it's not just her I will miss, I will miss my soul sister naomi, who probably understands me more than anyone, even though she might not understand where i come from with the whole changing thing, but i guess its not made for her to understand, maybe thats something i will just have to deal with on my own and learn from it, i just hope i dont get hurt, and then theres everyone else i've grown to love, that i've grown to like, and that i will miss terribly.
and then theres my love life...and to end that subject, i'll just say this...there is none.
but today was ok. as i said last night i had jasmine and naomi over and we didnt get up till around 11, well i forced them to get up. then we chilled at my house till around 3:00 and thats when we walked off base to get out of the house. we went to circle K to get drinks b/c of how hot it was. the whole way naomi waved to every person there was to wave to, i swear that girl is going to be the mayor someday. after that we went to k-mart and i borrowed (lol jasmine)some lipgloss, which i dont plan on giving back to them. then we walked to lauren's house to see what they were up to but they weren't home so we waited till the got home and we chilled there for a little while, which was fun, then I came home..and thats when my depressing night started...
well i guess thats all for now...
-Mags
I love my...friends
well the first thing that made my night bad was, im alone, and i mean i know that sounds weird b/c im alone all the time, but tonight just feels different. i called naomi and she didn't sound like she was in a good mood, like she was depressed to, which made me even more lonely. i called to tell her that if she wasn't busy tomorrow call me, and she said she would, i wonder if she actually will. i was talking to her the other night, about how i was scared about her changing, and even though she says she wont or that i dont need to worry...i am. the three of us were talking today, and naomi has been left out of a lot of things, and she wonders why. i mean yea its great to have a boyfriend, and its great that they get along so well, but i mean she should really remember that her friends are here too. my mom always tells me that,and never to be one minded, and naomis not, but a lot of the time her mind is set on poppy, and thats y she doest miss out on alot. My 14th birthday party, she was out with poppy, 8th grade luau, she left with poppy and that was the last night as a group that we hung out, and she decided that she would have more fun wit him, and this might sound dumb, but now that I think about it, that hurts my feelings. but shes not as bad as some girls, but i still miss her and i hope it doesn't get worse in high school.
another thing that got to me tonight was the talk i had with my mom a few nights ago. im so worried that i will have to move...and july will come sooner that i think. i talked to jessie tonight and we both thought that it would be best if i told sophia now, and not wait till i found out and her think i knew all along, but i'm worried it will bum us both out and our summer together will be ruined b/c thats all we would be able to think of, and count down the days we have together, instead of counting down the days the the two of us will walk into freshman year together. And it's not just her I will miss, I will miss my soul sister naomi, who probably understands me more than anyone, even though she might not understand where i come from with the whole changing thing, but i guess its not made for her to understand, maybe thats something i will just have to deal with on my own and learn from it, i just hope i dont get hurt, and then theres everyone else i've grown to love, that i've grown to like, and that i will miss terribly.
and then theres my love life...and to end that subject, i'll just say this...there is none.
but today was ok. as i said last night i had jasmine and naomi over and we didnt get up till around 11, well i forced them to get up. then we chilled at my house till around 3:00 and thats when we walked off base to get out of the house. we went to circle K to get drinks b/c of how hot it was. the whole way naomi waved to every person there was to wave to, i swear that girl is going to be the mayor someday. after that we went to k-mart and i borrowed (lol jasmine)some lipgloss, which i dont plan on giving back to them. then we walked to lauren's house to see what they were up to but they weren't home so we waited till the got home and we chilled there for a little while, which was fun, then I came home..and thats when my depressing night started...
well i guess thats all for now...
-Mags
I love my...friends