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I am so stressed out right now. I am so determined this year to get good grades on my finals. Im sick of my dad shoving it in my face that every final i take i get an E on. Ive been getting really iritated when my dad makes the comment "when are you going to do some more studying alyssa?" it drives me insane. its like nails on a chalk board. I know that i have to do it, and if he just left me alone about it i would do it on my own. I know what i have to do, and ill do it. I plan out when ill study, around the other things i want to do. I decided today that i was going to go to the mall with Rachel and Elizabeth, and then come home and study, instead of going to Krystins graduation party with them and go to howell outlets. But of coarse "Alyssa, when do you think your going to get some more studying in if your going to be gone all day??" OK agian, I KNOW and i will do it if you leave me alone about it, and 2nd if i went with them, i would be gone ALL day, so i wouldnt get any studying in, but if i went to the mall then i obviously would only be gone a few hours so i could come home and study some more.
Another thing im fustrated about is my birthday. I decided that im going to go to the spree with my friends and then come back to my house and have a bonfire/sleepover thing. OKAY, so im thinking thats just going to go right down the drain, because my parents still think i am 5. "Alyssa, your not going to be outside at 11 having a bonfire" WHY? because we have old neighbors, and 2 houses down they have a baby. Ok maybe if you just gave me a chance, i could prove it that we wont be as loud as we usually are, and we went to the spree all day so were going to be tierd once we get back. I wanted to stay at the spree untill like 11- 11:30 anways. So they dont like us having a bonfire that late. OK AGIAN IM NOT 5! And if you tell us to be quiet, ill listen. Another thing that annoys me is they used the excuse "Baylee's window is right there" This is the times where i miss not having her around. Well.. i dont mean it like that, i just miss being able to be the baby and having to worry about if shes sleeping or not. Idk im being selfish, but i just really wanted my 16th birthday to go how i wanted. idk we'll see what happends..
xox
Alyssa ♥
Another thing im fustrated about is my birthday. I decided that im going to go to the spree with my friends and then come back to my house and have a bonfire/sleepover thing. OKAY, so im thinking thats just going to go right down the drain, because my parents still think i am 5. "Alyssa, your not going to be outside at 11 having a bonfire" WHY? because we have old neighbors, and 2 houses down they have a baby. Ok maybe if you just gave me a chance, i could prove it that we wont be as loud as we usually are, and we went to the spree all day so were going to be tierd once we get back. I wanted to stay at the spree untill like 11- 11:30 anways. So they dont like us having a bonfire that late. OK AGIAN IM NOT 5! And if you tell us to be quiet, ill listen. Another thing that annoys me is they used the excuse "Baylee's window is right there" This is the times where i miss not having her around. Well.. i dont mean it like that, i just miss being able to be the baby and having to worry about if shes sleeping or not. Idk im being selfish, but i just really wanted my 16th birthday to go how i wanted. idk we'll see what happends..
xox
Alyssa ♥