i suppose im back !!
Why do I put myself through these situations I could have avoided ?
I do things I think are best for me, and in the end I just end up hurting myself more and more. And I always find myself wondering if I would be happier if I would have made the other decision, or am I as happy as I'm going to get. Would everything have changed if I would have decided to go the other way. Why do I always choose the 'easy way' out of things? Why can't I just thoughen up, and make other risks, instead of just doing what I say is 'best for me', which in teh end reall is just the easier way out of things. Why can't I just go on making risks and stop worrying so much about the future? Why do I alwasy screw myself over? Why must I always hurt myself with everything I do?