enough is enough. it's time.
i've been in such a strange but lovely place the past few months. i feel everything i once had faded in 2006 so rapidly. i've realized i'm a very happy person and you really can only rely on yourself. i have been doing a lot of bullshitting recently but in all honesty, i don't care. i feel so free, as if i'm just floating through these months. nothing is bringing me down and i have learned to accept things as they are even if i feel i should be upset about it.
it is true.... why spend a day worrying about this and that? i've let go of a lot of things i thought i would never allow myself to forget. i have even thought nasty mean things about people who have hurt me. i just feel beyond that now. i think that stage in my life is closing. the world is obviously a fucked up place and i've experienced enough to not take anything by suprise anymore. growing up...it's a wild ride.
i love right now, i feel so calm and at ease. my best friends are beautiful and special people. we are closer than ever. i have no desire to be serious with a boy, i am happy with enjoying the boy's company when i can. it's so simple. i don't see much change happening anytime soon. i like this place inside of myself i have found.
i'm pushing myself farther away from this internet world. that's the way it is beginning to seem. it's a strange habit to break when you have been doing it religiously for multiple years. i don't have much connection or opportunity to get on here to "chat" and bullshit around anymore. i like that though. the real world can actually be a much more exciting place if you aren't sucked into the internet on a daily basis.
this is all i have for now.
stone sculpting has killed and blistered my hands.
time for rest.
until whenever, goodbye.
it is true.... why spend a day worrying about this and that? i've let go of a lot of things i thought i would never allow myself to forget. i have even thought nasty mean things about people who have hurt me. i just feel beyond that now. i think that stage in my life is closing. the world is obviously a fucked up place and i've experienced enough to not take anything by suprise anymore. growing up...it's a wild ride.
i love right now, i feel so calm and at ease. my best friends are beautiful and special people. we are closer than ever. i have no desire to be serious with a boy, i am happy with enjoying the boy's company when i can. it's so simple. i don't see much change happening anytime soon. i like this place inside of myself i have found.
i'm pushing myself farther away from this internet world. that's the way it is beginning to seem. it's a strange habit to break when you have been doing it religiously for multiple years. i don't have much connection or opportunity to get on here to "chat" and bullshit around anymore. i like that though. the real world can actually be a much more exciting place if you aren't sucked into the internet on a daily basis.
this is all i have for now.
stone sculpting has killed and blistered my hands.
time for rest.
until whenever, goodbye.