today sucks . . . . . .
Well, Courtney and I aren't friends anymore. I mean she doesn't want to be my friend anymore. This just makes me feel even worse about the whole solo thing. I talked to Ms.Stevens about quitting the solo and she asked on the first time if some people were saying things!!! I sware she read my mind. I felt like crying because I didn't want to tell her who said it, but I wanted to feel better. So, I didn't tell her it was Courtney that made me feel bad and said some stuff (what Becky told me). Carro, Jess, Rachael, Annie, and A TON of others made me feel better through out the day though. I love them! =) I still don't feel too great about the whole thing. I just wish I could understand why Courtney is so angry at me. To me, it seems that I should be angry at her, but for some reason, I'm not. I'm SO confused and I just want this to end, but Courtney won't respond to my IMs. *sigh* I don't know what I'm gonna do. I feel horrible about it all. It seems like this is the ONLY thing I have to worry about, but I have SO much more. I keep trying to focus on what really going on and to forget about the whole solo/Courtney/gossip thing, but it just doesn't work. urgggg. Well, I have dinner and a little more homework to do. *sigh*
<3always,
heather
<3always,
heather