tell me something nice....
oh lord i'm so confused and hurt?
Random i guess. You think since my best
friend is coming into town Thanksgiving i would be
sooooo happy. But all honesty i'm not. Going out
with my sister i realized anyone i date she hates them.
She is bad mouthing Augie and i can't say anything
cause then me won't talk for along time. It sucks. I'm
trying to be strong at school and not let anyone's words
hurt me, but how can i when all i want to do is cry? I have
no friends at school, but i really don't care about that. Why be
friends with someone when they sit there and talk shit about
you? I guess i've changed, but for the good or bad?
My mom thinks i hang out with Augie too much and maybe i
do. but everytime i call my 2 best friends they say "oh yeah girls
night tomorrow we'll call you to tell you where" but they always
call eachother and leave me out. Thats not best friend Material.
Crying doesn't get you anywhere and when i try to talk to
people they don't help they put me down or say something
very stupid that makes me look like an idiot. I need a job
and i'm gonna get one. Even if it's part time and only on the
weekends i'll be happy. maybe getting to be out and happy
and around older people will be cool. My life is just getting
worse and worse as days go by. I don't like the feeling i'm
having, the way i'm looking at things, and the way everytime
i here a someone talk about a great relationship i wanna cry.
why, i have no idea i have a perfect relationship with Augie
but my life is so confusing little things are getting to me. It's a week
til 10 months with Augie and i know everything will be okay by then
HOPEFULLY.
xoxo
Random i guess. You think since my best
friend is coming into town Thanksgiving i would be
sooooo happy. But all honesty i'm not. Going out
with my sister i realized anyone i date she hates them.
She is bad mouthing Augie and i can't say anything
cause then me won't talk for along time. It sucks. I'm
trying to be strong at school and not let anyone's words
hurt me, but how can i when all i want to do is cry? I have
no friends at school, but i really don't care about that. Why be
friends with someone when they sit there and talk shit about
you? I guess i've changed, but for the good or bad?
My mom thinks i hang out with Augie too much and maybe i
do. but everytime i call my 2 best friends they say "oh yeah girls
night tomorrow we'll call you to tell you where" but they always
call eachother and leave me out. Thats not best friend Material.
Crying doesn't get you anywhere and when i try to talk to
people they don't help they put me down or say something
very stupid that makes me look like an idiot. I need a job
and i'm gonna get one. Even if it's part time and only on the
weekends i'll be happy. maybe getting to be out and happy
and around older people will be cool. My life is just getting
worse and worse as days go by. I don't like the feeling i'm
having, the way i'm looking at things, and the way everytime
i here a someone talk about a great relationship i wanna cry.
why, i have no idea i have a perfect relationship with Augie
but my life is so confusing little things are getting to me. It's a week
til 10 months with Augie and i know everything will be okay by then
HOPEFULLY.
xoxo