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so i feel a little better today which is good i guess... but then both my uncles called to tell my mom some bad news about her dad...incase you don't know my grandpa was in the hospital and they diagnosed him with lung cancer, nemonia, Parkinson's disease, and bone cancer sooo thats the down low and my uncle called to tell us to get back to connecticut b/c they were really surprised that he made it through the night soo now we kinda have to figure out how we are going to get the money to fly back to connecticut to see him before he dies which wont be long...:( yeah story of my life so and jenna i am sooo sorry about the game and about the whole thing he shouldn't have done that to you and i am soooooo sorry you have no idea how bad i feel and i didn't know the whole story so it was my fault i do understand what you are going through, even though you might think that i do, i do i really do and i am really sorry that it happened but you have me no matter what and i love you and always will and you can talk to me about anything you know that! and im not mad at you i never was i was just confused about the whole thing but its ok now i will talk to you today after you get home from church and then we will see eachother tomorrow.....call me if you need anything..and about last night i know i freaked out on you about the whole fat thing but you guys don't understand what i see....you see someone skinny and pretty(i guess) but when i see myself i don't see that and i know that sounds weird but when i see myself i see everything wrong with me when you guys see everything that is right sooo i just thought i would let you know why i was sooo upset and yeah .......everyone that knows who i like well i don't anymore b/c hes an annoying jerk that doesn't care about anyone but himself sooo that is done and i am over him.....anyways you know what i just thought of lol brents hole in his pants lol did you see that jenna hehe that was great but i have to go love ya all byeeee Ann Gi