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So things are dragging on once more.I'm still not dealing well with gram being gone.:(..I've decided that I want to live my life the way she did.And I've decided that those who bring me down are no longer going to be involved in my life.I want to live my life to the fullest and be happy as she did..Judgemental people are no longer part of the equation.
On that note, I do not question my faith anymore.I know what I believe in my heart, and I know that i will be with my family again when I die.Which makes me happy.I was going through a time when i wasn't sure of my faith or what to believe in..But I KNOW gram is with pappy.And someday i will take my place there also.I know where I want my life to go now.
And above all I need to be a happy person for the most important people in my life, My children.Despite the fact that many who don't know me like to judge me on my being a mom.They are NOT a mistake to me and anyone who things I've made a mistake can go on from my life, I don't need you :)) I'm a better person since I've had my boys.When they smile I do.
Speaking of the which I need to post some new pics of them.Its amazing to me how much they have grown, and how much they learn everyday even.They = amazing to me anyway because of what a miracle they are <3<3
They showed me what love really is.And what life is all about.
So on that note, anyone who is going to be negative know now that I don't hate you for it, but I don't wish to speak to you anymore :):)
and to all my friends thanks for sticking beside me through all the tough stuff.I know I haven't been easy to talk with the past couple of weeks!Bear with me!Its getting better :)!
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here