bruised lips
okay, so me and tim met yesterday for the first time... it went well. we had fun. he went with me when i went to get my phone. and then we went to the mall for a while and then went to see silent hill. that movie is fucked up. i dont like it. but tim is a good kisser. but he confused the hell outta me. he told me that he doesnt want a relationship. yet when we were laying in my bed watching the dukes of hazzard, we made out for a long time. he stopped and i asked him what was wrong and he said he felt weird kissing me.... yet later when we were trying to sleep he started again. it kidna confused me. i mean... hes a really good kisser. really good. my lip is bruised cause he bit it. so now it looks like i have a fat lip. but oh well.... i dont know what to do now cause im all confused about the whole kissing thing. i was fine with just cuddling and such cause it was innocent. but when he started kissing me it felt like he wanted to be more than friends. yet he told me thats all he wants to be. now im afraid that he wont talk to me again. and i dont want that to happen. i really dont want that to happen. i like him too much as a person to not speak to him again. id rather be friends with him than nothing at all. even though its killing me to be just that. distance is something that can be worked out. but only if the people are willing. im willing to work on it. but i dont think he is. why is this so fucking confusing?!?!?!?