all this baby mama drama
actually its not. haha but its still drama. i swearr being a teenaged girl in fuckin hs iss ridonkulous. and its extremely difficult when u have to chose between friends. i used to feel that i had 2 seperate groups of best friends. [not even counting the random ones i have that arent like group best friends *like cait, ali, danielle... *] but anyway, now i feel like thats splitting into 3 different groups and i just cant deal with it. and i always feel stuck in the middle. because i just want everyone to get along. i dont understand y we dont. we used to. we all play lax together [well minus even and deb], were always together, i dont even get it. whatever. i hate choosing. and im just saying now, im always going to choose the 'group' that doesnt make me choose. like tonight... come on guys. that was immature. u know it. heather had to tape, and maybe i understand if linds was mad at ash, and stuff but when were all together we always have so much funn. i dont even understand it. but whatever. im really trying to avoid drama. and people talk about people. its a fact of life. liek katie was saying, u just have to accept it. like there is nothing anyone can do , so instead of being stuck on things, might as well get over it. i mean, people are like, just say it to my face. but honestly, do u really want some1 to do that? cuz thats gonna start a fight too. im not saying ohh lets just talk about everyone, heather was saying we need to chill with that. its hs, its hard, but honestly, its not worth it. none of this. blahh im spent
on a good note... or a bad note.. or both... lax weight training after school today... and we did 8 sprints down a-hall and a one lap jog. it was good. i miss running soo much. i cant belive i quit track :( i just wanna kick myself. although, eve says its pretty hardd now soo idk, i like running, but not when its not fun. idk. it was just amazing. and then also... for the first time in about 3-weeks i purged. grrr. i hadnt since like a few days before i was sick... and then idk... but it felt soo good. haha. idk, like knowing i can eat my cake and have it to [figuratively speaking]. and i just didnt feel so depressed about eating.
ohhh and at the prom-preview fashion show i won a free one month membership to golds gym :) i need to find some1 to go with tho haha. cuz i dontt wanna go by myself. ohhhh andd i think i just had the best report card of my LIFE. 1 A- in honors global, 1 B- in adv. pre calc [heyy i got a c- last time whatt up] and the rest a's :) well minus chem... cuz my teacher is soo sick and i never did my project soo i didnt get a gradee yet. butt i know i have a a- or a. sooo no c's is what i was getting at :) sexxxxxay. haha. ohhh and my mom was looking in some car mag andd she likes the mazda 3 :D apparently it was a top choice for something or other. soo shes looking at that for me :) althoughh she wants me to get a corolla or a civic... but i dont want a civic cuz everyone has those and i dont want a corolla... idk y actually. i just really want a mazda 3. but apparently the corolla has execellent safety while the mazda only has good or average or something. idk. im not gonna crash :P haha xoxo
on a good note... or a bad note.. or both... lax weight training after school today... and we did 8 sprints down a-hall and a one lap jog. it was good. i miss running soo much. i cant belive i quit track :( i just wanna kick myself. although, eve says its pretty hardd now soo idk, i like running, but not when its not fun. idk. it was just amazing. and then also... for the first time in about 3-weeks i purged. grrr. i hadnt since like a few days before i was sick... and then idk... but it felt soo good. haha. idk, like knowing i can eat my cake and have it to [figuratively speaking]. and i just didnt feel so depressed about eating.
ohhh and at the prom-preview fashion show i won a free one month membership to golds gym :) i need to find some1 to go with tho haha. cuz i dontt wanna go by myself. ohhhh andd i think i just had the best report card of my LIFE. 1 A- in honors global, 1 B- in adv. pre calc [heyy i got a c- last time whatt up] and the rest a's :) well minus chem... cuz my teacher is soo sick and i never did my project soo i didnt get a gradee yet. butt i know i have a a- or a. sooo no c's is what i was getting at :) sexxxxxay. haha. ohhh and my mom was looking in some car mag andd she likes the mazda 3 :D apparently it was a top choice for something or other. soo shes looking at that for me :) althoughh she wants me to get a corolla or a civic... but i dont want a civic cuz everyone has those and i dont want a corolla... idk y actually. i just really want a mazda 3. but apparently the corolla has execellent safety while the mazda only has good or average or something. idk. im not gonna crash :P haha xoxo