What Do You Do When Your Family Thinks You're A Failure?
Do you ever just sit there and think? Do you ever wish you were a better version of you?
Do you ever want to be that one person that everyone looks up to? The one person with no faults?
But here's a question for you, what do you do when your family thinks you're a failure?
I sit here and I wonder. I realize that unfortunately I'm not the best person I can be.
I'm actually nothing close to it. I could be a person that atleast someone in this world looks up to, but I'm not.
I know I'm not the skinnest thing in this world. I know I'm not the fattest.
What is fat now a days anyways? Is it me? I'm not to sure.
I know I'm not the smartest, and I know I'm not the dumbest.
What exactly is dumb these days?
But here's something I am that I didn't realize I really was til today.
What is it you ask? I'll tell you.
I'm a failure.
Maybe I'm not your four point oh, genius, know what I want every single day of my life type of person.
I want to be a version of that person and I'm slowly getting there. I just need time.
Someone once told me, no one can be perfect.Yet the person who told me this is always down my throat.
Telling me to work harder, try harder, do something harder. Telling me I'm not the person I should be and that I need to change. Saying that you'll regret this in four years. You'll be sorry that you didn't listen to me.
But I'm trying to proceed. And progression and progress takes time, doesn't it?
I've switched from three different insturments within two years.
I'm in a math class everyone thought I'd be failing.
I'm trying to do better but nobody really cares.
All they say is no more this no more that, you're not improving.
Don't they see, don't they see I am.
Can't they see I'm trying?
I guess no matter how hard I try I'll always be the failure of my family.