I'll lie too and say I don't mind
lets start from the top....
god, little did i know how right my description of last nite would be - it truly was "interesting."
got showered, then picked up jessica. she came back and we managed to break her indecisiveness on her outfit. ended up wearing my top. lol. "inhaled" some mac n cheese, did our hair, and all that jazz. i did her eyeshadow. lol, took a lot of trust for me to do that. did the final touches and we were on our way.
not too many people were there when we showed up. britney was there tho! love that girl. ended up chatting about for awhile and more people slowly came. saw ellie! was so happy. (we HAVE to actually get together soon! lol) continued to mingle with the crowds and such. laly was there!!! omg, i havent seen her since like january, was sooooooo happy to see her finally. andrew ended up being a rebel and coming. matt and ali, unfortunately, left very early. danced some, talked some, gossiped some. called some stuff that i thought was going on and i was so right. finally got to par-tay w/ marisol. hehe. realized avi was the total dance animal. got called a whore an realized that, thanks to a good amount of our math class being there, cathy and i have truly soldified our rumored lesbianism. o! and then when james showed up w/ the lax team..... totally the bizarre moment that made the night for me. never got that promised dance tho. lol. towards the end, major pot scent lingering and some attempted fights. dont know exactly how far those went tho. ended uo just sitting and talking for the last hour till me and jessica got picked up. she slept over. got home, showered, recapped the nights events, shared thoughts on things, then crashed.
so, all in all, this party can pretty much be considered my "first real high school party." we have plenty of gossip to go around, quite a few hookups (and those are just the known ones), a good amount of uninvited/unwanted people who showed up, definite drug use, quite a few incidents of attempted fights, bonding of friends, making new friends, people trying to make the move of being more than friends, and all that is in between..... basically, to sum it all up: plenty to talk about on monday.
ended up waking up about 10ish and jessica left shortly after. came online for a bit, then mis abuelos came over. ended up going to lunch w/ them at flanigans and went to costco. finally got my pics printed out - around 130 of them! got dropped after spending the afternoon with them. was nice. came home and found out my new bed was delivered. then got ready, and went to dan marinos with the folks. then we saw the interpreter. thought it was really good, love movies like that. it got depressing at some points tho, which left me a bit heavy-hearted. headed home and am here now, talking to people. hope that everyone turns out alright in the end of everything.
have you ever wanted to tell somebody something, and then you think about doing it, but when the opportunity comes up, you dont take it? which now causes you to wonder why exactly you didnt tell them whats been going on in your head? which leads you to all these reasons and excuses why you didnt tell them? and then you screw yourself over some more by concluding that you cant tell them what you wanted to in the first place? so then the cycle continues when you feel like youve stored up some courage to tell them... well, that situation, it really, really does suck.
heading off to dreamland in my new bed, N