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i just want to fall in love, like i was with you, but with someone who loves me back.
its taken months to be "okay"
i still cry for you, my heart still cant completeley let go.
but i can finally admit to myself that you were a really shitty, awful and abusive person and you chnaged, hurt and made me feel like i was nothing at all.
i still cant even think properly..
im still feeling unattractive.
i gave you my heart and in return you broke me to peices.
i went back time and time again, until i found strength from god knows where, strength to push forward a tiny little bit and be just "okay"
now, every time i meet a genuine beautiful person, i push them aside, i feel guilty and i feel sick, because its not fucking you. not a fucking guy who hated being with me anyway.fucking hell, whats wrong with me. seriously?
give me a break.
its taken months to be "okay"
i still cry for you, my heart still cant completeley let go.
but i can finally admit to myself that you were a really shitty, awful and abusive person and you chnaged, hurt and made me feel like i was nothing at all.
i still cant even think properly..
im still feeling unattractive.
i gave you my heart and in return you broke me to peices.
i went back time and time again, until i found strength from god knows where, strength to push forward a tiny little bit and be just "okay"
now, every time i meet a genuine beautiful person, i push them aside, i feel guilty and i feel sick, because its not fucking you. not a fucking guy who hated being with me anyway.fucking hell, whats wrong with me. seriously?
give me a break.