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Life has its highs and lows. it seems like once everything is finally going good things come crashing down and the whole world that you have adapted to slowly begins to crumble. Right now i feel beyond crumbs its not the fact that i miss him i think its that i miss having a boyfriends. Its so hard for me to believe that things ended the way they did, i really thought he was different. but obviously not. I keep trying to keep the tears back but i cant, i have never been like this. So because of this matter i have decided to build a wall. I thought i could trust you not to be like the rest but let me tell you i think you were worse then Chris, at least he never made promise or pretended to be someone else. I cant believe that someone can change so much in 4 months, you told me so many lies including when you told me you loved me that was such a lie. I should have never given you a second chance i regret it, i should have never believed that you were a changed man, cause you weren't. I need to learn to be true to myself, because in the end it always seem like i am left to pick myself back. Im sick of putting on a pretty face and pretending everything is okay when in reality its killing me inside to even get out of my bed. But i wouldn't be in my bed mourning the loss of you i would be crying of my stupidity and good heart. That thinks everyone deserves a chance, well that obviously bit me in the ass.
New Year Resolutions:
1. Stop wasting your tears on people who aren't worth it
2. Be the strong girl you no you are
3. Be more aware of who you let into your life
4. Be true to yourself
5. Loose your insecurities
New Year Resolutions:
1. Stop wasting your tears on people who aren't worth it
2. Be the strong girl you no you are
3. Be more aware of who you let into your life
4. Be true to yourself
5. Loose your insecurities