Im Officially Crazy!!

[xothink_pinkox]

I don't even know how i feel anymore. Or what my feelings for you. All i know at this point is that i going to miss u kid. People take advantage of the things that are there everyday, until you wake and realize that they will not be there forever. My forever has officially ended, and unfortunately we are now back to reality. The way i feel when im with you in unexplainable, you make me feel so safe, like nothing can happen. Everything that could go wrong went wrong the other day, then you held me and i forgot it even happened. I seriously love you, no matter what we are i don't care,as long as you promise you will always be there no matter what. Because, the relationship we have is truly unexplainable, and cherished. I feel like we have gotten even closer this summer, which i didnt think was possible since we were already close, but we some how managed it. All i can say is that i will really miss you, but lucky enough for me your not leaving forever. But, and the same time i feel like if i dont make "that" change then it will never become anything, but thats not really fare to me either. You should really like the person because of who they are, not try to change them into the person that u want them to be. But at the same time i know that you mean it in a nice way and you are trying to help. So maybe this time it will work, because sometimes i feel like it holds me back, like its the only thing that is stopping me from being who i really am. I have to do this because if i dont i will always wonder, if that one little change would have completely changed out relationship for the good or that bad. But, why waste your time wondering when you actually have the chance to change and not wonder. For once i feel like things are under my control, i want to sit and dream about how things could have been then i should just stay the way i am. But, if i feel like its the one thing that i want to change, and never have the wonder in the back of my head, then something needs to be done. Anyways i love you with all of my heart and i will miss you tooo no end you are my best friend, my brother and everything in between. So have fun, and dont be afraid to show who you really are because guess what i know the real you and im still here.

- From the mind yet of ANOTHER confused girl