idk...
Sometimes its soo hard to just let go of people.Especially when they are someone that you really cared about. Im extremely upset that things ended on such bad terms. You fucked me over like no other. I thought you cared, and that you were different. I made the mistake of letting things get further then they should have. But, tonight as i am trying to fall asleep, all i can thing about is you. I wake up smiling because i just had a dream about you. Why!! do i have all these happy thoughts of you in my head when all u did was hurt me in the end. Im not going to lie i miss you alot, especially on those days that i just feel so alone, all i want is for someone to just be there for me, and be the stronger one for once, have a shoulder to lean on instead of being the one leaned on all the time, and you were that for me. You were my bestfriend, we basically spent every waking hour together, we did everything together. We could just sit there doing nothing, or go on a random adventure but we always had fun. The irony of all this is that, yesterday would have been the day we were supposed to end things, but to tell you the truth i dont think we would have been able to do that. The thing that hurts me more then anything is that you are dating HER, not because i dont like her and she is a whore, but because of what she did to you, i dont think people like her deserve second chances. Its not far that ppl like her get second chances, and ppl like me are kicked to the curb in a certain sense. I dont know if i will ever really get over you, and i feel so crazy writing in this thing because you will never see it,but it makes me feel better. I ran away from you i cut off every mean of communication, you were driving me insane. Im happy we broke up because keeping that big of a secret from the people that love and care about me was a huge burden. I just wish you would have listen to my wishes and ended things the way i would have liked them to end. The weirdest thing is that i broke up with you, at first it was not becuase i wanted to but because i had to. But in the end im happy its over, yes we had good times, but this relationship was far more drama then it was worth.
On a happier note, i started college today. Lets just say i almost died this morning. So i was walking and i guess there was like a huge truck and basically i was listening to my ipod and they almost ran me over. Some kid had to tap me ont he shoulder to tell me there was a huge truck about to kill me. Then i find out that im in a accelerated math class, which is not a good class for retarded math ppl. And im trying to get out of it and i cant seem to do that. Other then that there are alot of ppl at my school is a little overwelming but other then that i like it alot.
On a happier note, i started college today. Lets just say i almost died this morning. So i was walking and i guess there was like a huge truck and basically i was listening to my ipod and they almost ran me over. Some kid had to tap me ont he shoulder to tell me there was a huge truck about to kill me. Then i find out that im in a accelerated math class, which is not a good class for retarded math ppl. And im trying to get out of it and i cant seem to do that. Other then that there are alot of ppl at my school is a little overwelming but other then that i like it alot.