(no subject)
Okay, not many people read lj's anymore so i thought i would say some things on here instead of putting it on my xanga..Alright, most of you probably dont know what i'm talking about, but some of you do. I just really have to get this out there.
I want him, he wants her, she wants.. who knows. I love him, and i know i could be everything he wants. I'm serious. I am ready and willing to give my heart to him, but i cant do that if he wont take it. I want him to love me, but i know thats gonna be hard for him.. cause he still loves her.. i know it'll be a while and i want to wait because i think if he gives me a chance, we'll do good, we'll make it. I just.. i dont know. I'm not willing to tell him this. He says he's confused. I know that has to do partially with me and i dont want to confuse or stress him out anymore than he already is.. I dont want to create more problems for him and i dont want to become his problem.. i just dont know what to do. I want to wait for him to be over her, but i think that'll be a really really long time.. and what happens if i wait for him to get over her and then he doesnt want to give me a chance. I keep thinkin' in the back of my mind.. "Tasha, give him some time and maybe you'll get your chance." I dont know, i guess it's just really really hard for me to believe that. Ha, sometimes i just wish i could wake up one day and he'll just walk up to me and say "I love you and i've been missing out on a lot and i dont want to waste anymore time.. i want to be with you" Ha, but thats not gonna happen. I'm just being a wishful thinker. Wow, it seems like i always end up in the same situation. Wishing for something thats not destined to happen. For once i just wish things will work out my way, and stay that way. Dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining and i'm not trying to sound selfish. I love life, and i am enjoying every moment of it.. I just, i dont know. I think he'll complete things. I dont know what to do. I guess i should just leave everything alone and let him figure out what he wants.. Huh, he always tells me not to worry about it, but by saying that, it makes me worry more. Wow, i really hope he doesnt read this cause i dont want to freak him out or make him think that i'm some stalker thats obsessed with him.. That wouldn't be cool. Okay, well thats all i have to say. I'm gonna go now. Comments will be very much appreciated. ;)
I want him, he wants her, she wants.. who knows. I love him, and i know i could be everything he wants. I'm serious. I am ready and willing to give my heart to him, but i cant do that if he wont take it. I want him to love me, but i know thats gonna be hard for him.. cause he still loves her.. i know it'll be a while and i want to wait because i think if he gives me a chance, we'll do good, we'll make it. I just.. i dont know. I'm not willing to tell him this. He says he's confused. I know that has to do partially with me and i dont want to confuse or stress him out anymore than he already is.. I dont want to create more problems for him and i dont want to become his problem.. i just dont know what to do. I want to wait for him to be over her, but i think that'll be a really really long time.. and what happens if i wait for him to get over her and then he doesnt want to give me a chance. I keep thinkin' in the back of my mind.. "Tasha, give him some time and maybe you'll get your chance." I dont know, i guess it's just really really hard for me to believe that. Ha, sometimes i just wish i could wake up one day and he'll just walk up to me and say "I love you and i've been missing out on a lot and i dont want to waste anymore time.. i want to be with you" Ha, but thats not gonna happen. I'm just being a wishful thinker. Wow, it seems like i always end up in the same situation. Wishing for something thats not destined to happen. For once i just wish things will work out my way, and stay that way. Dont get me wrong, i'm not complaining and i'm not trying to sound selfish. I love life, and i am enjoying every moment of it.. I just, i dont know. I think he'll complete things. I dont know what to do. I guess i should just leave everything alone and let him figure out what he wants.. Huh, he always tells me not to worry about it, but by saying that, it makes me worry more. Wow, i really hope he doesnt read this cause i dont want to freak him out or make him think that i'm some stalker thats obsessed with him.. That wouldn't be cool. Okay, well thats all i have to say. I'm gonna go now. Comments will be very much appreciated. ;)