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I'm going through the hardest week of my whole life and I have no idea who I can count on for help. A week ago I literally hopped into the shower mid dinner and sped my way to Berlin in record time. I dropped everything. And while I realize not everyone is like me in that way, it sucks when you need something in return. I am so grateful that he came with me on Wednesday, but I realize it was mostly out of his own selfishness. I understood that Sunday was Father's Day...but yesterday was a big let down, and today even more so. I hate when he gets my hopes up and then crushes them. I dont know what I need right now. I've been eating terrible foods and blowing off workouts. I can't sleep, I can't stop crying.
I miss my grandmother so much. I am so sad that she will never get to come to my wedding or hold my babies. And I don't know if she ever really knew how much I loved and appreciated her. I just can't believe she's gone.
I miss my grandmother so much. I am so sad that she will never get to come to my wedding or hold my babies. And I don't know if she ever really knew how much I loved and appreciated her. I just can't believe she's gone.