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sometimes it feels
like the world is crumbling around you but then you look up and realize
that its you thats crumbling...not them
that was my title but it was too long so i had to put it down here, lol. i am a mess i dont know what is going on with me...i am like falling apart. i feel sooo alone and i am trying to be so careful about not messing things up between kat and brandon because i know that if anything ever happened because of me i would die. so i feel like i have to wtch what i say to them and then i know thta they read this so i cant talk about it on here so i just have no way to release it so its all just bottled up inside of me and i know thats not healthy. i just dont know what is going on i just want to like crawl up and sleep forever. i am like soo bitchy and full of pain. its not like its even saddness its just sheer pain. and everyones little comments that they claim are just nothing are lie knifes stabbing me because i just am so overwhelmed with everything else that it just makes everything worse. i need a break i need to get away and have some ashaley time because seriously just writing this i want to break down in tears but i refuse to let myself because i dont want to anyone else to worry about me and think that anything is wrong. these are my problems and no one can help me with them....u guys all know me and know that i am usually strong and try not to let things get to me but this is too much. i just dont know anymore...........................
that was my title but it was too long so i had to put it down here, lol. i am a mess i dont know what is going on with me...i am like falling apart. i feel sooo alone and i am trying to be so careful about not messing things up between kat and brandon because i know that if anything ever happened because of me i would die. so i feel like i have to wtch what i say to them and then i know thta they read this so i cant talk about it on here so i just have no way to release it so its all just bottled up inside of me and i know thats not healthy. i just dont know what is going on i just want to like crawl up and sleep forever. i am like soo bitchy and full of pain. its not like its even saddness its just sheer pain. and everyones little comments that they claim are just nothing are lie knifes stabbing me because i just am so overwhelmed with everything else that it just makes everything worse. i need a break i need to get away and have some ashaley time because seriously just writing this i want to break down in tears but i refuse to let myself because i dont want to anyone else to worry about me and think that anything is wrong. these are my problems and no one can help me with them....u guys all know me and know that i am usually strong and try not to let things get to me but this is too much. i just dont know anymore...........................