...GrEaT... :/
okay i decided i'd write in here because im almost to tears.... :(
-my afternoon...
so i was having a pretty good day..until i tripped and fell on the way home from the bus stop....i hurt my knee really bad and ripped a hole in the knee of my favorite (and newest) pair of jeans from american eagle...i'd only worn them about 5 times....my mom said she'll get me another pair of jeans, but the thing is..i dont WANT new jeans...they're like $45 each and i dont want her to freaking spend MORE money on clothes for me....i already feel selfish enough when it comes to that....
so i had just gotten off the phone with my mom(crying of course) and i got online to put up an away message bc i TOTALLY didnt feel like talking..... :/ ....so after putting up my away message i went downstairs and fixed up my knee, which didnt do much, and i ate some dinner bc i have a soccer game tonight.... when i came back upstairs cameron had left me a message asking what was wrong...and i didnt want him to bother himself over it...its my problem and he doesnt need to be worrying about me any more than he already does...:( so i was just like "no cameron..im FINE!" and he put up an away message w/out saying goodbye about how he's learned not to mess with people when they're in a bad mood or something...he didnt answer his phone when i tried to call....and now i feel like i've totally F-ED something up and its making me feel like crap...and i want to cuss so bad right now but im really trying not to lately...and i want to cry...but it wont come out...it will sometime tonight though.... i really just want to run away and not have to deal with anything anymore.... cameron and lindsey can come with me if they want, but everyone else has to stay here.
i feel like im a horrible person right now because it seems like lately im always either pissed off or depressed about something....even if i have no reason to be :(
-my afternoon...
so i was having a pretty good day..until i tripped and fell on the way home from the bus stop....i hurt my knee really bad and ripped a hole in the knee of my favorite (and newest) pair of jeans from american eagle...i'd only worn them about 5 times....my mom said she'll get me another pair of jeans, but the thing is..i dont WANT new jeans...they're like $45 each and i dont want her to freaking spend MORE money on clothes for me....i already feel selfish enough when it comes to that....
so i had just gotten off the phone with my mom(crying of course) and i got online to put up an away message bc i TOTALLY didnt feel like talking..... :/ ....so after putting up my away message i went downstairs and fixed up my knee, which didnt do much, and i ate some dinner bc i have a soccer game tonight.... when i came back upstairs cameron had left me a message asking what was wrong...and i didnt want him to bother himself over it...its my problem and he doesnt need to be worrying about me any more than he already does...:( so i was just like "no cameron..im FINE!" and he put up an away message w/out saying goodbye about how he's learned not to mess with people when they're in a bad mood or something...he didnt answer his phone when i tried to call....and now i feel like i've totally F-ED something up and its making me feel like crap...and i want to cuss so bad right now but im really trying not to lately...and i want to cry...but it wont come out...it will sometime tonight though.... i really just want to run away and not have to deal with anything anymore.... cameron and lindsey can come with me if they want, but everyone else has to stay here.
i feel like im a horrible person right now because it seems like lately im always either pissed off or depressed about something....even if i have no reason to be :(