*love doesnt start with I it starts in the heart*
yea... well these past few days have been rather interesting... my life sux i hate it rite now! as soon as things start goin good and i get all happy about them it always falls rite back down and it starts RITE back where it started.
-A LOT has happened w/me n cj lately and it all happened so fast...which im not even gonna write about bcuz i dont feel like writing a bunch of bull shit and i made one of the *biggest* mistakes not that i regret it much bcuz it was good while it LASTED but now i feel EXACTLY how i felt for the past 3mths about the whole situation and now that i look back im juss like why couldnt he of left it ALONE it was juss fine but NOOOOO...impossible i dont unerstand....
Anyways- i went n saw that movie The Passion Of Christ sunday (great movie) it was like the actual movie had to tell the story becuz there was NO english just subtitles i felt like i was reading a book. it was pretty sad though..it opened my eyes in many directions.
i dunno why i even write in this thing sometimes bcuz once u think about stuff and write them down it really makes u see how bad things are. but i guess thats only when ur life sux and u have sumthin to write about thats bad...
at the rate my life is going things seem so complicated. i try to keep a good face and keep my head up when things in my mind are flowing through with nuthin BUT complications. i juss wish things could go back the way they use to be. life seemed so much easier. i know half the things i worry about i shouldnt but i no longer know how to have a relaxed mind and just breathe. its always something!
but i guess in many circumstances i chose my life to be this way. i mean we chose the roads of life we take Rite?!?! but then again i guess whats along the road is unpredictable and we act upon how we feel. i never knew how hard things could get and how messed up ones life can be and also how the main person thats s'pose to be ones backbone can just disappear w/out a trace... makes ya think...makes ya wonder...
well im out...enuf has been said
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