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thats it im through with all this shit... i just dont wanna be apart of it nemore. i dont need it..i should b sooooo happy right now..but at this moment im really not. i feel like im gonna b sick n im crying. fun fun. many things in my life are coming up that are gonna b great. im gonna b 16 ..i can get my permit..my party is coming up and i get to see certain people that i havent seen in like forever. milball should b fun. i have great people in my life. how come all i wanna do is cry right now?? im soo sick of people trying to control my life n my decisions..im sick of people trying to hurt me..and trying to make me upset. why ? PEOPLE SUCK! i had one of the best weekends in awhile n im upset grr! not cool! vinnie is not gonna run my life nemore...im serious its fucked up and im not gonna b scared nemore. im not letting him affect me much nemore...whether i will follow this i dont know. i dont think im gonna let sarah completely control nick and i nemore... its not right it really isnt. ive consulted many people..this all hurts so bad! grrr i dont know i have to go though cuz mom n lee r fighting yay for me!