St. Pius again...
Hey.. I'm going back to St. Pius again today. But not for the same reasons unfortunetly. My great-aunt Tina *my gma's sis* passed away, so I have to drag my ass up there. I wasn't really close to my Aunt so I don't think I'll cry like I did when my papa died, but I can't stand watching people cry. I hate it. I makes me wanna run away. Seeing people cry just makes me wanna run... and run like hell. Is that weird?
School today.. Wow... Today finally made me realize that "If you want something you need to go for it and not drag your feet about it.. because you never know when your oppurtunity will be over"... Yah.. *cough cough ERIK cough cough*... I kinda wish he would have spoken up on thursday about how much he likes me.. cuz I feel bad about telling him that I like him, then on Labor Day I get a boyfriend, but you know its not entirely MY fault.. Mr. Zavicar regretted to tell me that he had a GIRLFRIEND in Woodhaven.. so when I found that out I kinda got pissed and started looking else where...
And then theres Derrick, don't get me wrong I like the kid.. but there are so many rumours about him its not even real. Some I don't believe.. others I do... Hes great omg is he great.. but there's something that isn't like... clicking.. I've never had butterflies in my stomach.....*unlike the above mentioned* Maybe its just the "mature" kind of relationship he wants to be in or somethin..
Idk I asked Josh and he goes "Take it Day after Day" and then I talked to Ben and he goes "Choose whatever one makes you feel respected and loved the most" and then he says that maybe I should lay off dating for a while... because I don't think right now is a good time to have a boyfrind... And I don't wanna blame it on stress and stuff.. but I'm REALLY feeling the pressure...
What with School, Grades, This Pagent *this will be almost over* the acting thing.. keeping all my friends happy lol.. but just idk..
I miss the old days.... when the only thing I'd have to worry about it the person that was "IT" for tag on the jungle gym.
School today.. Wow... Today finally made me realize that "If you want something you need to go for it and not drag your feet about it.. because you never know when your oppurtunity will be over"... Yah.. *cough cough ERIK cough cough*... I kinda wish he would have spoken up on thursday about how much he likes me.. cuz I feel bad about telling him that I like him, then on Labor Day I get a boyfriend, but you know its not entirely MY fault.. Mr. Zavicar regretted to tell me that he had a GIRLFRIEND in Woodhaven.. so when I found that out I kinda got pissed and started looking else where...
And then theres Derrick, don't get me wrong I like the kid.. but there are so many rumours about him its not even real. Some I don't believe.. others I do... Hes great omg is he great.. but there's something that isn't like... clicking.. I've never had butterflies in my stomach.....*unlike the above mentioned* Maybe its just the "mature" kind of relationship he wants to be in or somethin..
Idk I asked Josh and he goes "Take it Day after Day" and then I talked to Ben and he goes "Choose whatever one makes you feel respected and loved the most" and then he says that maybe I should lay off dating for a while... because I don't think right now is a good time to have a boyfrind... And I don't wanna blame it on stress and stuff.. but I'm REALLY feeling the pressure...
What with School, Grades, This Pagent *this will be almost over* the acting thing.. keeping all my friends happy lol.. but just idk..
I miss the old days.... when the only thing I'd have to worry about it the person that was "IT" for tag on the jungle gym.