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Now I'm tryin' to be assertive.
I'm making plans.
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands.
But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers.
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
-Bright Eyes
Sometimes bright eyes knows exactly what to say haha... so college has been a big waste of time so far.I came to this college knowing what i was told it had to offer. Had it all planned out. Came here with the high hopes that id find me place. and start writing music again. and find people who have intrests like me music wise and have this great time meeting people. Well let me tell you. I havent written anything. I have yet to find anyone who even kinda likes the music I like. I sit at this school and feel so uninspired here. Im constantly sad or mad cuz college has been one big flop for me. I feel like im wasting soo much time here. My love is music. My love is writing. My love is working with little children. what am I doing with my life. Im at a Liberal Arts college and no one likes the music i do and im not even insipred to write again.. hows that play out? I miss working at the day care. Im going to school for psyc. Im an idiot haha. Ive screwed this college thing up big. I cant even go out to a party to meet people every weekend or even weekday safetly alery bullitons are sent to us becuse of the high about of rape and date rape drugs at my school this year. For a small school its an unheard of amount. I need to figure out what Im going to do. And i need to start making a plan cuz i cant make it here for 4 years. Ive never felt this uninspired in my entire life.
I'm making plans.
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands.
But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers.
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
-Bright Eyes
Sometimes bright eyes knows exactly what to say haha... so college has been a big waste of time so far.I came to this college knowing what i was told it had to offer. Had it all planned out. Came here with the high hopes that id find me place. and start writing music again. and find people who have intrests like me music wise and have this great time meeting people. Well let me tell you. I havent written anything. I have yet to find anyone who even kinda likes the music I like. I sit at this school and feel so uninspired here. Im constantly sad or mad cuz college has been one big flop for me. I feel like im wasting soo much time here. My love is music. My love is writing. My love is working with little children. what am I doing with my life. Im at a Liberal Arts college and no one likes the music i do and im not even insipred to write again.. hows that play out? I miss working at the day care. Im going to school for psyc. Im an idiot haha. Ive screwed this college thing up big. I cant even go out to a party to meet people every weekend or even weekday safetly alery bullitons are sent to us becuse of the high about of rape and date rape drugs at my school this year. For a small school its an unheard of amount. I need to figure out what Im going to do. And i need to start making a plan cuz i cant make it here for 4 years. Ive never felt this uninspired in my entire life.