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so here it goes. The classic leaving home. summers almost over entry.
I did two things this summer I told myself i wouldnt do. I met a boy. and I fell in love. and now here I am leaving for school in NH. ya i know he will visit when he can come up. But ive seen him pretty much none stop for 5 months and it will be 6 months on the 10th of aug.
Dereks Now off to train for the US Army he left tuesday night. From that point and now on till the end of aug. starts the real start of the end. ya I know all the good friends stick around right. thats what they said about HS and taht has yet to shine true. anyways. Dereks gone and will be back in Nov for a few days. ill be in NH when he comes back lets just hope he comes to NH before shipping out or something like that.
anyways its only gunna get worse before it gets better. I know its life and i know all the key facts about moving on and fate and things happen for a reason but im still allowed to doubt things and just be stright up sad. A month from today i leave. All my friends aree staying in mass. None of them really are going out of state for school. all keeping close contact am i jealous. ya maybe a lil. it was my own choice tho. i had such a hard ass view on life that running outta state outta mind would just fix everything. and now time ticks closer and i wanna stay in my home town i wanna go to the town diner every weekend and know my best friends are 5 mins down the st. the mall is where ill bump into people from my past and ill smile and laugh. and it brings tears to my eyes everynight. im 18 and clueless. welcome to eveyone elses lifes. and im ranting.
I like to pretend that if i keep busy and avoid everything that just maybe it will go away for some more time. but it doesnt. and today the 25th hit me hard. one month. that is all i thought about all day. i never was a fan of life changing events but things you have no controll over. I think im starting to repete myself now soo ill stop.
theres a few things i know. they are, i gave my whole entire heart to a boy and fell in love, im leaving the state in a month, i listen to way too music acoustic music for my own good, im way over my head in life.
goodnight and sweet dreams
I did two things this summer I told myself i wouldnt do. I met a boy. and I fell in love. and now here I am leaving for school in NH. ya i know he will visit when he can come up. But ive seen him pretty much none stop for 5 months and it will be 6 months on the 10th of aug.
Dereks Now off to train for the US Army he left tuesday night. From that point and now on till the end of aug. starts the real start of the end. ya I know all the good friends stick around right. thats what they said about HS and taht has yet to shine true. anyways. Dereks gone and will be back in Nov for a few days. ill be in NH when he comes back lets just hope he comes to NH before shipping out or something like that.
anyways its only gunna get worse before it gets better. I know its life and i know all the key facts about moving on and fate and things happen for a reason but im still allowed to doubt things and just be stright up sad. A month from today i leave. All my friends aree staying in mass. None of them really are going out of state for school. all keeping close contact am i jealous. ya maybe a lil. it was my own choice tho. i had such a hard ass view on life that running outta state outta mind would just fix everything. and now time ticks closer and i wanna stay in my home town i wanna go to the town diner every weekend and know my best friends are 5 mins down the st. the mall is where ill bump into people from my past and ill smile and laugh. and it brings tears to my eyes everynight. im 18 and clueless. welcome to eveyone elses lifes. and im ranting.
I like to pretend that if i keep busy and avoid everything that just maybe it will go away for some more time. but it doesnt. and today the 25th hit me hard. one month. that is all i thought about all day. i never was a fan of life changing events but things you have no controll over. I think im starting to repete myself now soo ill stop.
theres a few things i know. they are, i gave my whole entire heart to a boy and fell in love, im leaving the state in a month, i listen to way too music acoustic music for my own good, im way over my head in life.
goodnight and sweet dreams