utopia...a place of ideal perfection
ok so the past 2 days have been better then the past couple of weeks but im still stressed or w/e you wanna call it. i got a lot to say...but only to one person and that person wont give me time and just listen...10 mins...thats all i ask
i gave everything i had left and it obviously wasnt enough
i dont understand how love or "like" works...you fall for someone b/c of the connection you have with them and how just being with them made you feel like you were absolutely immortal...untouchable; yet they can just leave you and never talk to you again and be ok with it. i feel naked and vulnerable and as tho any minute could be my last and all i can do is think about him and how much i want that feeling again even if its for just one minute...itll be one minute of utopia and then maybe i can move on
most of you know that kelly clarkson is my idol...so heres a part of a song that goes with what im sayin...
"its like your a leach sucking the life from me
its like I cant breathe with out you inside of me
and I realize im never gonna quit you over time
its like I cant see anything, nothing but you, im addicted to you.
its like I cant think with out you interrupting me-in my thoughts, in my dreams, youve taken over me.
its like im not me, its like im lost, its like im giving up slowly, its like your a ghost thats haunting me, leave me alone!
and I know these voices in my head are mine alone
and I know ill never change my ways if I dont give up on you now.
*I'm hooked on you...I need a fix...I can't take it...just one more hit...I promise I can deal with it...ill handle it...quit it...just one more time then thats it...just a little bit more to get me through this."
i gave everything i had left and it obviously wasnt enough
i dont understand how love or "like" works...you fall for someone b/c of the connection you have with them and how just being with them made you feel like you were absolutely immortal...untouchable; yet they can just leave you and never talk to you again and be ok with it. i feel naked and vulnerable and as tho any minute could be my last and all i can do is think about him and how much i want that feeling again even if its for just one minute...itll be one minute of utopia and then maybe i can move on
most of you know that kelly clarkson is my idol...so heres a part of a song that goes with what im sayin...
"its like your a leach sucking the life from me
its like I cant breathe with out you inside of me
and I realize im never gonna quit you over time
its like I cant see anything, nothing but you, im addicted to you.
its like I cant think with out you interrupting me-in my thoughts, in my dreams, youve taken over me.
its like im not me, its like im lost, its like im giving up slowly, its like your a ghost thats haunting me, leave me alone!
and I know these voices in my head are mine alone
and I know ill never change my ways if I dont give up on you now.
*I'm hooked on you...I need a fix...I can't take it...just one more hit...I promise I can deal with it...ill handle it...quit it...just one more time then thats it...just a little bit more to get me through this."