I hate cryin it makes my eyes red and puffy..
Just another day that makes me think about why I said yes to movin to this state....i had everything goin for me in Texas...good grade (straight A's), Friends that i had known since elementary school, a great house that i loved, my first kiss was there, my first lil love crush, the place where i first realized that i wanted to be a famous actress...i miss being Sarah Page and not just Sarah...being able to ride my bike around by a street and not have to worry about being shot or raped...i miss it. My friends there havent seen me since 2 summers ago and i hate that..or maybe i just the feeling of being left out or just laid aside b/c i cant be there. I JUST WANNA GO HOME!!! I have never liked florida ever since i was here...i had never cried so much in my life...and life here still sucks and makes me wonder y am i here in florida when i had everything goin for me in texas. The only people here that have since i moved here truly been here thru thick and thin is Sam and Aly...no one else was truely there for me...no one else cared if i broke down in class and just cried...which makes it easier to deal with. I love them both for everythin...being there to end my abusive relationship last year that i thought was just tough love which was the end of the world for me...caring to help me over it..lol rubber band theropy...they are my angels and i love them to death. But they still dont help with the grades...im like seriously goin to get beat...i dont wanna be here when my dad gets home...really scared. Now he's goin to tell me i cant get into the colleges i want and im a failure in life and that im a dumb ass...nothin new..well i feel like goin to lay down and cry so lata